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My dad was bothering me and I blew up at him. I just feel so on edge. I punched a whole in the wall. Now I really want to drink. I won't but I feel terrible. Sober I just can't control my temper.
David

Dee74

You;'re in early recovery - it sucks but things will get better than this.
Don't fall for the old 'I have a bad temper sober so I better drink' line.

Say sorry to your dad, patch the wall, and stay sober David

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nez

In early recovery a wise friend told me that when I felt my anger building, to pay attention to the physical changes taking place in my body and if I enjoyed them, then continue. If not, then focus on the part of the body where I felt the anger the most and work on releasing the tension and relaxing so the anger could leave my body. As I did this, say a grateful and humble quiet thank you for this simple tool. Then move on to the next part of the body where I still felt the effects of the anger and repeat the process. And so on.

msl999

This is your AV talking. To avoid “white-knuckling” you need to recognize that AV & separate from it’s clarion call.

Dropsie

Nez, great advice!

nez

Yes it was and I am so glad my friend shared it with me. It proved to be a game changer for me.

advbike

I find my temper flares up quite easily in early sobriety.

ScottFromWI

Hope you are feeling better today David. Early sobriety can be quite an emotional rollercoaster.

uncle holmes

I did the same thing too David back in the day when I was younger and in early sobriety! I was sober but miserable! I was living at my parents house and blew up one morning and punched holes in the wall!

I ended up seeing a therapist for it many times throughout my life! Never got in fights or hurt anyone! But I would have periods where it was like a stick of dynamite 🧨!

The therapists would help me recognize what’s going on and we drew up a plan of strategies on recognizing it and taking concrete action when it appeared!

I ended up finding out that the core problem of those episodes was untreated alcoholism! Drinking was no longer the problem! Being able to handle sobriety was!

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Thanks that helped. I think it is the alcoholism because every time I lose my temper it's when I trying not to drink. Irritable restless discontent until I take a drink.Never lost it drunk or high not once. I don't how to live sober. Don't know how to cope.
David

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Have to I am feeling better today. I am less anxious now than yesterday. Everything don't drink im less anxious. Still tired though.

RecklessDrunk

I would go to the Serenity Prayer early and often.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to things the can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

If you can put trust in God, a higher power, or at least just accept the flow of the universe it should help you relax. Live life on life's terms. I found sort of an ability not to care. Not just let everything go and not try to do anything not care. I mean just do my best and whatever happens, happens. So what. Alcohol let's us say so what but it also pollutes our thinking at the same time. I try to keep a more productive, so what attitude sober then what I had when I was drinking.

I only have control over so much and God is going to take me where he is going to take me. No point getting angry just do the next right thing. Easier said then done but gets easier as you go.

Mizz

With each passing day and with each time you get through those emotions you will know how to do this sober thing. I was all over the map in early sobriety. I don't know how long you have been sober but my first few weeks were a GIANT roller coaster.
People kept asking me if I was okay due to my silence and keeping my distance. I was internally a mess and just needed to put one foot in front of the other. I really just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs everyday, all day long....until that feeling passed.... took awhile. ....or I wanted to cry or shut the blinds and never come out of my bedroom......or I wanted to burst. A balloon filling with more and more water and then POP!

Sooooo.....I digress. It takes a bit to get through the emotions but once you are through it ......things settle down.

nez

I didn't know how either! Didn't have a clue..until I continually did it. I took to drinking like a natural. Sobriety, not so much. Hands on experience at living sober on a daily basis provided me with tons of lessons that I learned as I went along. I have come to the conclusion that I am a slooow learner, but the good news is that I do learn, it just takes me lots of repetition. It has been worth it though. Life is so much better being sober!