That makes two weeks today
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That makes two weeks today
Wasn't able to post yesterday, busy rebuilding a large flower bed... and making it even larger. Hope to wrap it up today. Rain on the way the next few days.
So here we are. Two weeks. My third Saturday sober. Woke up early, had some coffee and got breakfast at the local greasy spoon. Picked up some donuts for everyone else, not just waiting for it to get light enough to work outside.
Do I feel different? Yes, but no. Obviously the physical aspect is a lot better. More alert in the morning, coffee seems to actually do something. Seems like I constantly dehydrated but I did sweat my @ss off outside yesterday.
Mentally/emotionally.... I'm really concentrating on my bipolar and not letting it get ahead of me, as that's when I begin to struggle with the liquor.
Gonna go hard and finish up outside. Then relax and watch a good movie. My Hulu had some good flicks available recently. Maybe a comedy? Or something history based? Stay tuned...
So here we are. Two weeks. My third Saturday sober. Woke up early, had some coffee and got breakfast at the local greasy spoon. Picked up some donuts for everyone else, not just waiting for it to get light enough to work outside.
Do I feel different? Yes, but no. Obviously the physical aspect is a lot better. More alert in the morning, coffee seems to actually do something. Seems like I constantly dehydrated but I did sweat my @ss off outside yesterday.
Mentally/emotionally.... I'm really concentrating on my bipolar and not letting it get ahead of me, as that's when I begin to struggle with the liquor.
Gonna go hard and finish up outside. Then relax and watch a good movie. My Hulu had some good flicks available recently. Maybe a comedy? Or something history based? Stay tuned...
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I had a hard time with motivation when I first got sober cause everything I did involved being under the influence of something. Sounds like you are doing pretty good! best wishes for you on your journey!
Keep going, it gets better. 
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Thanks for the encouragement, everyone. Flower bed project is wrapped up. Had four hours in it Friday afternoon and another solid four hours Saturday. Wrapped it up just shy of noon time. Sore, blisters, still dehydrated. May go for an easy walk early this morning, just to stay loose.
Hoping to make this a perennial wild flower garden of sorts. Had an old wooden trellis I used for tomatoes and beans that I sat in it with hopes of planting something there that climbs. Got a few months before I must order seeds, so I have time to research.
Entering week three. Not letting me guard down, I know better.
Hoping to make this a perennial wild flower garden of sorts. Had an old wooden trellis I used for tomatoes and beans that I sat in it with hopes of planting something there that climbs. Got a few months before I must order seeds, so I have time to research.
Entering week three. Not letting me guard down, I know better.
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Went through a dark place there early this afternoon. Wasn't at a good spot mentally. Then someone gifted me with a dozen Cherrystone clams. Never heard of 'em. They're huge. Apparently they are meant to be eaten raw, but I steamed them anyway. Felt better after that. Watching Blue Bloods now, then I'll enjoy some tea and a book before bed.
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Meh. Trying to keep my head in a good place. Letting stupid stuff get to me. Haven't been able to work out for two days straight due to the weather. Hoping I can do something the rest of the week. I'm plenty tired, too. Gonna shower and read for a bit.
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My father was bi-polar and I thank God for the treatment that is available, but I know it can still be a bumpy road.
I am not BP, but I did have serious bouts of clinical depression for years after my second child was born and it was tough to say the least. But I got through it, and so will you.
There is a lot out there to get us down these days, but often the pain just comes from inside. For me, medication was essential.
Not to state the obvious, but for us it is all worse with a alcohol in the mix.
Thinking of you.
I am not BP, but I did have serious bouts of clinical depression for years after my second child was born and it was tough to say the least. But I got through it, and so will you.
There is a lot out there to get us down these days, but often the pain just comes from inside. For me, medication was essential.
Not to state the obvious, but for us it is all worse with a alcohol in the mix.
Thinking of you.
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Today seems to be going better. Did my best to keep my head in the right place.
Decided to take a few days off from rucking. I really overdid things this past weekend pushing a wheelbarrow around, trying to whip my big flower bed into shape. Decided instead to work at meal prep for the week. Got some veggies roasting in the oven, will be making some Cajun rice in a bit.
Decided to take a few days off from rucking. I really overdid things this past weekend pushing a wheelbarrow around, trying to whip my big flower bed into shape. Decided instead to work at meal prep for the week. Got some veggies roasting in the oven, will be making some Cajun rice in a bit.
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