Please stay on the Sober bus - pt.37
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,777
Billie and I are on the bus. 
Leigh, many years ago I had a nest of ground bees, or whatever they were. I didn't want to use insecticides so every night for a week I poured a big pot of boiling water on the nest. That took care of it.
Leigh, many years ago I had a nest of ground bees, or whatever they were. I didn't want to use insecticides so every night for a week I poured a big pot of boiling water on the nest. That took care of it.
Later if you guys want I can BBQ anything you bring me.... as I have burgers going now.....and Vegi burgers as well.....
Ahhhh..happy on the bus!Member
Join Date: Nov 2016
Location: Canada
Posts: 6,866
I will be on vacation for the next two weeks.
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
Sober-T- Dragon
Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: Manitoba
Posts: 8,760
Originally Posted by Canadian Koala 
I will be on vacation for the next two weeks.
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
I have recently been experiencing stronger than expected cravings but luckily they past quickly enough for my logical side to take over. I've felt myself planning that relapse too. Tho it's not wanting to get totally smashed, just one (or two) 'cause I miss it. But if I allow just one, how will I say no to the next one, two, five, dozen?
I remind myself of everything I have gained in the last three years and all the things I enjoy doing. I know that if I start to drink, all that will be lost again. My life is too rich right now, I don't want to end up counting pennies again for one more bottle.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,496
Originally Posted by Canadian Koala
I will be on vacation for the next two weeks.
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
My programmed reflex for the last 40 years when I finished on the last day at work was to get plastered like if there was no tomorrow.
That addict tape still gets active on every first vacation day (on Christmas vacation first day too) even after almost 4 years of alcohol and substances abstinence.
It was very painful last night as I had to go through one of the worst craving in many months
I was starting making plans to get my favorite poisons in secret and blow my head off alone at home.
It didn't happen because I called my sponsor in emergency.
I told him it was a "Call Before" type of call.
We talked for over an hour and that helped me to calm down.
Phewww, it's now gone.
I feel so ashamed this morning that I almost relapsed but here I am, proud to hop on the Sober Bus for my 190th consecutive sober weekend.
Glad to be here with you guys today and part of this wonderful family
Count me in for a ride on the Sober Bus today ☼
There should only be pride....you called your sponsor and won.
Put the beast back in its box.
That is somewhat awesome.
❤️
Member
Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
Originally Posted by venuscat
Love ~ there is no shame in ALMOST relapsing.
There should only be pride....you called your sponsor and won.
Put the beast back in its box.
That is somewhat awesome. ❤️
There should only be pride....you called your sponsor and won.
Put the beast back in its box.
That is somewhat awesome.
❤️Koala, I'm really happy for you that you pulled up and called your sponsor. No Shame in that - that's the whole premise of AA, one alcoholic helping another stay sober.
Enjoy that Sober Holiday (you too, Dragon. Dragon I'd come personally kick your butt into next Tuesday if you drank. Consider me your SR sponsor. )
ON the Sober Bus!!!!!!!!!!!!
Member
Join Date: Feb 2020
Posts: 873
Hang in there CK as I think of it all the time and I am 34yrs sober... and still hanging out on the sober bus...
This is your vacation and Dragon as well..... you guys are doing great.. just keep your head above the water... and don't look back..
I am on the bus with coffee in hand.....
I also have fresh fruit and special muffins for everyone......
This is your vacation and Dragon as well..... you guys are doing great.. just keep your head above the water... and don't look back..
I am on the bus with coffee in hand.....
I also have fresh fruit and special muffins for everyone......
Quit 4/17/15
Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Pa
Posts: 15,176
I am glad that you had the wherewithal to call your sponsor CK! Just like you and Dragon mentioned, the start of vacation was always a time to get wasted to start the week off rolling. I was always sneaking rum and cokes in my "water" bottle while sitting at the beach. My first couple years of vacations were very trying, as I had decades of ingrained behavior telling me it was ok. As Suze said, there is no shame in almost relapsing. I think all of us, no matter how much sober time we have under our belts, will find ourselves up against it from time to time. Knowing how to find our way out is the key.
Enjoy your vacations folks!
Enjoy your vacations folks!
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