Notch8

I've been missing from the forum for a few weeks. I had ten weeks sober under me. I was so proud, yet so lost. My bipolar seemed to be shifting and decided to drink a little. We all know the story...

I am on the last day of a three day taper. Tomorrow will be day one once again for me. I beg your prayers. Addiction is a b!tch.

Hevyn

I'm glad you wanted to talk about it, Notch. I did the same thing a few times before finally realizing it was never going to be worth it to experiment by having 'a little'. Admitting it was poison to me - every single time - was freeing. Congrats on your new beginning - and your Day one tomorrow. We're with you.

MaximusD

Welcome notch, I look forward to following your progress! Post often!

Notch8

Thanks guys. I was doing so well with my sobriety yet my bipolar was torturing me. I wasn't managing it well at all.

Dee74

Welcome back Notch - whats your plan to deal with the bipolar?

Notch8

Don't quite know just yet. The problem didn't set in right away last time. I'm hoping things open up around here pretty soon so I can see my therapist and run this past her. I also need a proper haircut pretty bad. And I'm tired of wearing a mask. At least we have good toilet paper now.....

MaximusD

I see my therapist virtually. Is that an option?

Notch8

Here we are. Day one again. I went on a taper hoping to avoid too many withdrawal symptoms. I wanted to make July 1st my quit date but I felt really good about the situation, so decided to make today it.

fini

way to go, Notch!
i had a set quit date, too, and then actually quit a bit earlier, as it just felt right and i was at that spot...
keep going.

MaximusD

Notch, Join us in the class of June 2020 thread for June quitters.

D122y

Bipolar issues are out of my wheel house. Hope you get pro help.

The after effects of my drinking didn't get horrible enough until I had drank off and on for over 40 years.

it was impossible for me to quit until then. I didn't have SR to teach me the real truth. Without the education SR offered, I was dooooommmmmmeedddd.

Now that I better understand the mental impacts of drinking booze, I don't want it in me. I imagine the physical ramifications were getting close to becoming a huge issue, but the mental scared me to the core first.

I have accepted that I have undiagnossed mental issues and I am more than fine with that.

My problem is obsessive regrets after the fact. I am working on being nice and then not really worrying about stuff. If my wife or boss are not in my face, I am probably ok.

Thanks.