check in...why I continue.
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check in...why I continue.
Well, today was Father's day and the second day in my new home with my Dad living with me. Man...talk about night and day. He just needed his family around. The man has done a 180 degree turnaround.
If all of this sobriety was so I could take care of my Pops after my mom passed...every***** day was well worth the joy in my dads eyes knowing he was safe and home with his family that loves him.
There are moments in sobriety that have been heartbreaking to me. Days I haven't wanted to get out of bed. Days where I have thought about relapsing. Days where the only answers I had were all the minutes I've stayed sober because everything else was falling apart. An then there was a day like today when my dad wrapped his arms around me and thanked me for taking care of him. He did that and told me he was proud of me. This makes all of those other days of struggling, worth every minute of the pain and suffering it took to get me here.
Today kicked *** This is why we fight for our sobriety. To do what is required in order to live a better life. I thought for 25+ years that I'd never get there. As corny as it sounds, the grind is just one day or one minute at a time until you have enough tools in your belt to be able to live again.
I'm so grateful for this.
If all of this sobriety was so I could take care of my Pops after my mom passed...every***** day was well worth the joy in my dads eyes knowing he was safe and home with his family that loves him.
There are moments in sobriety that have been heartbreaking to me. Days I haven't wanted to get out of bed. Days where I have thought about relapsing. Days where the only answers I had were all the minutes I've stayed sober because everything else was falling apart. An then there was a day like today when my dad wrapped his arms around me and thanked me for taking care of him. He did that and told me he was proud of me. This makes all of those other days of struggling, worth every minute of the pain and suffering it took to get me here.
Today kicked *** This is why we fight for our sobriety. To do what is required in order to live a better life. I thought for 25+ years that I'd never get there. As corny as it sounds, the grind is just one day or one minute at a time until you have enough tools in your belt to be able to live again.
I'm so grateful for this.
Doing the right thing is always...the right thing.
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checking in again...I gotta stop by more. Jeez... it's been almost a month since I posted anything?
Things are are still pretty hectic in my life. I'm still in the process of selling my old house and my father's.
He, and the rest of the bunch have settled in pretty well in the new place.
I've got 3 new kidney stones. 2 are passable, the third is 10mm wide and the dr said i was gonna need surgery to get rid of that. He said from the ultra sound it doesn't look like it's gonna be an issue for quite awhile though, so that's good. The other 2 stones were really bad. I spent a night in the hospital with the first one.
The Dr has me on medication to help me pass it faster, and he gave me some pain meds to help with the pain. Haven't taken any yet. Came close, but I stuck it out. My wife has them so it's out of my hands and I told her only to give it to me if my bp started to spike.
Life is crazy busy and terrifying at times, but it's living. Some days are beautiful.
I'm glad for this life.
Things are are still pretty hectic in my life. I'm still in the process of selling my old house and my father's.
He, and the rest of the bunch have settled in pretty well in the new place.
I've got 3 new kidney stones. 2 are passable, the third is 10mm wide and the dr said i was gonna need surgery to get rid of that. He said from the ultra sound it doesn't look like it's gonna be an issue for quite awhile though, so that's good. The other 2 stones were really bad. I spent a night in the hospital with the first one.
The Dr has me on medication to help me pass it faster, and he gave me some pain meds to help with the pain. Haven't taken any yet. Came close, but I stuck it out. My wife has them so it's out of my hands and I told her only to give it to me if my bp started to spike.
Life is crazy busy and terrifying at times, but it's living. Some days are beautiful.
I'm glad for this life.
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