Please please help! Relapsed.
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Hi Kat.
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Day 20. Your doing great. You should be proud of yourself. Just keep taking it one day at a time. Try not to focus on the future. Just stay in the day. I have faith You can do this. Just keep being strong.
.Day 20. Your doing great. You should be proud of yourself. Just keep taking it one day at a time. Try not to focus on the future. Just stay in the day. I have faith You can do this. Just keep being strong.
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What seems to help me a lot is reading my posts and replies in retrospect. It brings lots of emotional pain right back; but, keeps my sobriety in check.
30+ days sober with no desire to drink feels great. ⭐️
✅ No physical or emotional changes to report. Same weight (was hoping to lose a few lb). same migraines every other day (prayed for those to get better over time), same anxiety level (crippling and wishing it would subside). I try not to think about it too much though in order not to get discouraged and derail from the path I am currently on .
I wish you all well! 🙏🏻
Stay safe and make your sobriety a priority every day!
I finally got it; it is one of the most important (if not THE most important) thing to remind yourself daily. Sober=happy, happy=loving, loving=caring, caring=present, and present=there for the ones you love! 🙌🏻🤝👍🏻
30+ days sober with no desire to drink feels great. ⭐️
✅ No physical or emotional changes to report. Same weight (was hoping to lose a few lb). same migraines every other day (prayed for those to get better over time), same anxiety level (crippling and wishing it would subside). I try not to think about it too much though in order not to get discouraged and derail from the path I am currently on .
I wish you all well! 🙏🏻
Stay safe and make your sobriety a priority every day!
I finally got it; it is one of the most important (if not THE most important) thing to remind yourself daily. Sober=happy, happy=loving, loving=caring, caring=present, and present=there for the ones you love! 🙌🏻🤝👍🏻
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It’s like I was reading my own posts. This weekend Zi did the same. I’m a binge drinker also. I can’t tell you the countless times I wake up just to look at my phone and see what I did. The regret is so painful. This Friday I convinced myself I could have one and told myself you will only drink what’s here and not leave. Thais what I do all the time. Sure enough I binged and I wanted to die. I was so sick. I literally wanted to crawl out of my own skin. So again I will try again but I
Will not try to use down play this. I am an alcoholic and I have no control! Done playing Russian Roulette! You are not alone.
Will not try to use down play this. I am an alcoholic and I have no control! Done playing Russian Roulette! You are not alone.
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Originally Posted by Justme2016 
It’s like I was reading my own posts. This weekend Zi did the same. I’m a binge drinker also. I can’t tell you the countless times I wake up just to look at my phone and see what I did. The regret is so painful. This Friday I convinced myself I could have one and told myself you will only drink what’s here and not leave. Thais what I do all the time. Sure enough I binged and I wanted to die. I was so sick. I literally wanted to crawl out of my own skin. So again I will try again but I
Will not try to use down play this. I am an alcoholic and I have no control! Done playing Russian Roulette! You are not alone.
Will not try to use down play this. I am an alcoholic and I have no control! Done playing Russian Roulette! You are not alone.
All sounds too familiar to me. Unless you have gone through it once or twice (or 1000 times in my case), it is really hard to explain what the emotional pain feels like the next morning. It is hard to fathom that one could keep inflicting that kind of misery upon oneself. Time after time, after time 😔 but this is what the addiction does; first you lose control and then your life and everything that matters in it follows it.
I am very grateful that you took the time to share your relapse with us; today is new day and a new opportunity to start over. I will be thinking of you as I am working on my recovery. Just know that someone is praying for you today and that you matter! 🙏🏻
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Originally Posted by Kat1313
/\neither are you, Justme2016
All sounds too familiar to me. Unless you have gone through it once or twice (or 1000 times in my case), it is really hard to explain what the emotional pain feels like the next morning. It is hard to fathom that one could keep inflicting that kind of misery upon oneself. Time after time, after time 😔 but this is what the addiction does; first you lose control and then your life and everything that matters in it follows it.
I am very grateful that you took the time to share your relapse with us; today is new day and a new opportunity to start over. I will be thinking of you as I am working on my recovery. Just know that someone is praying for you today and that you matter! 🙏🏻
Thank you so much! I will be doing same for you! 🙏🏼
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Hi there! I am here and I am doing well all things considered. My uncle is fighting for his life as a result of COVID-19 and complications from diabetes, but I am there for my family every minute of every day. Sober, alert and present. 🙏🏻🤞🏻🙏🏻
I hope everyone is healthy and doing as well as expected. Thinking of all of you and sending loving energy to each and every one of you ❤️
I hope everyone is healthy and doing as well as expected. Thinking of all of you and sending loving energy to each and every one of you ❤️
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Re: Please please help! Relapsed.
Originally Posted by doggonecarl
Thanks for responding.
I asked what you were doing because whatever it was, it doesn't seem to be working. Good intentions won't keep you sober. Shame won't keep you sober.
I don't like to suggest specific methods or programs, like AA. But when someone come here as desperate for help as you appeared to be, I have to wonder, why not AA? Why not do whatever it takes to get and remain sober? Be it AA, Smart Recovery, Celebrate Recovery, Rational Recovery, out-patient treatment, in-patient rehab...WHAT EVER IT TAKES.
I asked what you were doing because whatever it was, it doesn't seem to be working. Good intentions won't keep you sober. Shame won't keep you sober.
I don't like to suggest specific methods or programs, like AA. But when someone come here as desperate for help as you appeared to be, I have to wonder, why not AA? Why not do whatever it takes to get and remain sober? Be it AA, Smart Recovery, Celebrate Recovery, Rational Recovery, out-patient treatment, in-patient rehab...WHAT EVER IT TAKES.
Ultimately, I think one really really needs to want to quit though. I had to go through 10 cycles at least like described where I couldn't get past 1-4 weeks, depending on the attempt, and have a lot of negative consequences, to get the will to take more serious action and get through the temptation/withdrawals.
This last time, there were multiple times during the first 3-4 weeks where it was intense enough that I thought about if I didn't really want this I would have relapsed.
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