75 Days today.
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75 Days today.
Three quarters of the way to my first 100 and already 12 more than my previous best (63 days end of 2018). I think – by reading SR for a couple of years – that I’ve actually had it easy compared to some other members’, and I’m thankful for it. I’ve gone it “cold-turkey” each time, and that after a bottle of scotch a day for years. Not that it was all smooth sailing so far; I’ve had a few ups and downs, as those who have read my previous post will know.
I do believe that the difference this time around, is/was that I had a mind-shift. Something inside me just said - “that is it, no more”. I stopped and I stayed stopped. My circumstances had a lot to do with the “staying-stopped”, of course. The environment I live in (dad and stepmom are also alcoholics), my finances, etc. Mostly, I think, is the fact that I know there are not too many chances left for me. I am going to die if I carry on the way I have for the last six years; for the last almost forty years really, if one included the thirteen booze-free years before the last soaked six.
I’m not saying I will never drink again – it is way too early for that, I know. For now, though, I’m fast heading towards three months sober, and then a hundred days, which is – to me – a lot to be thankful for.
And today, at least, I will not drink…
I do believe that the difference this time around, is/was that I had a mind-shift. Something inside me just said - “that is it, no more”. I stopped and I stayed stopped. My circumstances had a lot to do with the “staying-stopped”, of course. The environment I live in (dad and stepmom are also alcoholics), my finances, etc. Mostly, I think, is the fact that I know there are not too many chances left for me. I am going to die if I carry on the way I have for the last six years; for the last almost forty years really, if one included the thirteen booze-free years before the last soaked six.
I’m not saying I will never drink again – it is way too early for that, I know. For now, though, I’m fast heading towards three months sober, and then a hundred days, which is – to me – a lot to be thankful for.
And today, at least, I will not drink…
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Originally Posted by Rockbottom1964 
I do believe that the difference this time around, is/was that I had a mind-shift. Something inside me just said - “that is it, no more”. I stopped and I stayed stopped.
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75 days - how wonderful. You are doing this thing called sobriety. 
I agree with your thoughts of, 'that's it, no more'. I was so tired of humiliating myself & having to clean up my messes.
nez - 17 yrs. next month - so inspiring.
I agree with your thoughts of, 'that's it, no more'. I was so tired of humiliating myself & having to clean up my messes.nez - 17 yrs. next month - so inspiring.
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Originally Posted by Hawkeye13
How's it going RB?
17 years sober is a tremendous achievement, Nez. You really have reason to be proud. At this stage I’m not even thinking about 17 months, yet.
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Yep, I've had those "flashback" moments too. I wonder if it is a kind of detox where the body is doing some housekeeping now that we aren't pouring toxic crap in it daily any longer.
You know I drink quite a bit of honeybush tea--especially in the evening.
It comes from South Africa so I expect you know all about it but very rare around here.
It is like rooibos but has a slightly different (and I think better) taste. It does smell honey-like to me and I make a kind of chai out of it with Allspice, cardamon, ginger and nutmeg. I add some warm milk / heavy cream, and if I'm feeling reckless a little honey to taste.
Maybe try that as a special nightcap for yourself
You know I drink quite a bit of honeybush tea--especially in the evening.
It comes from South Africa so I expect you know all about it but very rare around here.
It is like rooibos but has a slightly different (and I think better) taste. It does smell honey-like to me and I make a kind of chai out of it with Allspice, cardamon, ginger and nutmeg. I add some warm milk / heavy cream, and if I'm feeling reckless a little honey to taste.
Maybe try that as a special nightcap for yourself
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Originally Posted by Hawkeye13
Yep, I've had those "flashback" moments too. I wonder if it is a kind of detox where the body is doing some housekeeping now that we aren't pouring toxic crap in it daily any longer.
You know I drink quite a bit of honeybush tea--especially in the evening.
It comes from South Africa so I expect you know all about it but very rare around here.
It is like rooibos but has a slightly different (and I think better) taste. It does smell honey-like to me and I make a kind of chai out of it with Allspice, cardamon, ginger and nutmeg. I add some warm milk / heavy cream, and if I'm feeling reckless a little honey to taste.
Maybe try that as a special nightcap for yourself
You know I drink quite a bit of honeybush tea--especially in the evening.
It comes from South Africa so I expect you know all about it but very rare around here.
It is like rooibos but has a slightly different (and I think better) taste. It does smell honey-like to me and I make a kind of chai out of it with Allspice, cardamon, ginger and nutmeg. I add some warm milk / heavy cream, and if I'm feeling reckless a little honey to taste.
Maybe try that as a special nightcap for yourself
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