Birthday this week...
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Birthday this week...
On the 18th I’ll turn 56, but it’s just going to be another day to me. The way it has been for years. The older I get, the lesser birthdays and other special days seem to matter. To me, in any way. My ex-wife and daughter will probably send me a couple of messages, but I doubt that any of the family I live with will remember. Not that I want them to, the same as I don't want any gifts from any of them. I'm an introvert and I hate attention - even if it is just for a few seconds.
I have already given myself a huge one (gift), though. This is the longest I have been sober in many years (I’ll have 69 days on the 18th ), and except for a few dips and not-so-good days in the last couple of weeks, I feel good. Not perfect yet, but I know I will eventually get there; or as close to it as possible. I really have forgotten what it - perfect – feels like, but after all the abuse I’ve subjected my body and mind to over so many years, I’ll be quite happy with “as close to perfect as possible” - and be thankful for it.
Lastly - even if it will just be another day – it will be my first birthday sober since 2013.
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Have a wonderful sober week, everyone on SR…
I have already given myself a huge one (gift), though. This is the longest I have been sober in many years (I’ll have 69 days on the 18th ), and except for a few dips and not-so-good days in the last couple of weeks, I feel good. Not perfect yet, but I know I will eventually get there; or as close to it as possible. I really have forgotten what it - perfect – feels like, but after all the abuse I’ve subjected my body and mind to over so many years, I’ll be quite happy with “as close to perfect as possible” - and be thankful for it.
Lastly - even if it will just be another day – it will be my first birthday sober since 2013.
...Have a wonderful sober week, everyone on SR…
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Originally Posted by Rockbottom1964 
I really have forgotten what it - perfect – feels like, but after all the abuse I’ve subjected my body and mind to over so many years, I’ll be quite happy with “as close to perfect as possible” - and be thankful for it.
I can really relate to what you said about perfection. I had to learn to accept being less than perfect very early in sobriety.
I'll never forget watching an old-timer arrange the literature on a table near me at an AA meeting. When he was done, he stepped back and looked at the table. Then he said, "That's perfect enough." I laughed. And his oxymoron has stayed with me ever since - - another flaw in my formerly "perfect" armour.
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Originally Posted by Hawkeye13
How was your day RB?
70 Days today.
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Originally Posted by dox
Well done on your sober time and your 56 years !
I can really relate to what you said about perfection. I had to learn to accept being less than perfect very early in sobriety.
I'll never forget watching an old-timer arrange the literature on a table near me at an AA meeting. When he was done, he stepped back and looked at the table. Then he said, "That's perfect enough." I laughed. And his oxymoron has stayed with me ever since - - another flaw in my formerly "perfect" armour.
I can really relate to what you said about perfection. I had to learn to accept being less than perfect very early in sobriety.
I'll never forget watching an old-timer arrange the literature on a table near me at an AA meeting. When he was done, he stepped back and looked at the table. Then he said, "That's perfect enough." I laughed. And his oxymoron has stayed with me ever since - - another flaw in my formerly "perfect" armour.
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Rock, I hope you had an awesome day, you deserve it.
Your post really made me smile, I just turned 58 and I’ve finally “gotten it”
& it feels great.
Being sober 15 months now is as close to perfect as life can get.
Even through sad and hard times, alcohol would just complicate and exacerbate EVERYTHING.
I LOVE my sober birthdays now too.
good on you
Xxxx
Your post really made me smile, I just turned 58 and I’ve finally “gotten it”
& it feels great.
Being sober 15 months now is as close to perfect as life can get.
Even through sad and hard times, alcohol would just complicate and exacerbate EVERYTHING.
I LOVE my sober birthdays now too.
good on you
Xxxx
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Hi, Snoozy. Thanks for your reply; every little bit helps, as you know. Yes, early days for me but I'll (hopefully) get there in the end, and in 15 months say what you do now. Have a great day in Oz. By my reckoning - I have family in Brisbane and on the Gold Coast - it must be about time to get up.
You are really blessed to live in such a wonderful place.
You are really blessed to live in such a wonderful place.
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