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What can I say this time? Still an alcoholic, still an idiot, still disappointing myself. I've had aches in my upper right abdomen the day after drinking and, thankfully, it has scared me enough to give this a proper go again. Hopefully fear will be the motivator that finally keeps me sober.
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Hi scared - it's good to see you again. You are most definitely not an idiot. We have to be ready - I hope you are this time. There's nothing in it for us but misery if we keep going. It took me a few times to be convinced I would never have any control. One drink would always lead to 10 - and reckless behavior. Time to get free. You can do it.
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Glad you are here. Fear was one element of what stopped me - but hope was the bigger part of the equation. I realized I didn't want to die - AND I had the tiniest hope that anything had to be better than the place I was, and THAT was the part that made me act.
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Originally Posted by scaredikklegoth 
Hopefully fear will be the motivator that finally keeps me sober.
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It's only day 2 so I know that things will be rocky for quite a while yet. I do feel less anxious though which is wonderful in and of itself as I KNOW drinking makes my anxiety worse.
I really want to do this. I want to be healthy, happy and stop wasting money!!
I really want to do this. I want to be healthy, happy and stop wasting money!!
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Welcome back scared. You’re in the right place. Remember to keep posting, even when you’re not sure you want to...
Hope the family is doing ok! ☺️
Here’s a crazy thing....the new mommy circuit can be big into drinking culture. Wine mom groups. Wine at playgroups, wine at play dates, wine at bbqs and family dinners...it can be tough to be a sober alcoholic around all the alcohol temptation especially with the stress of raising very young kids. Be strong. Blaze a new trail for the mom groups: it’s sorely needed!
Good to see you again.
Hope the family is doing ok! ☺️
Here’s a crazy thing....the new mommy circuit can be big into drinking culture. Wine mom groups. Wine at playgroups, wine at play dates, wine at bbqs and family dinners...it can be tough to be a sober alcoholic around all the alcohol temptation especially with the stress of raising very young kids. Be strong. Blaze a new trail for the mom groups: it’s sorely needed!
Good to see you again.
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fear can be a great motivator to get going on this.
for the longterm, though, fear tends to lessen and can be superceded by crazy ideas of how we can surely control, and we could try again, and it really wasn’t that bad, and probably we could maybe possibly likely perhaps be a social drinker now and...
fear can GET you going, but after that, a plan or program to KEEP going is a really good idea.
for the longterm, though, fear tends to lessen and can be superceded by crazy ideas of how we can surely control, and we could try again, and it really wasn’t that bad, and probably we could maybe possibly likely perhaps be a social drinker now and...
fear can GET you going, but after that, a plan or program to KEEP going is a really good idea.
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Originally Posted by scaredikklegoth
It's only day 2 so I know that things will be rocky for quite a while yet. I do feel less anxious though which is wonderful in and of itself as I KNOW drinking makes my anxiety worse.
I really want to do this. I want to be healthy, happy and stop wasting money!!
I really want to do this. I want to be healthy, happy and stop wasting money!!
What's your plan to do those things?
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Hi all, day 3 is tough. The AV is niggling at me so I've been thinking about liver disease and premature death and failing my daughter and all those things to keep me on the straight and narrow.
I'd love to say I have a foolproof plan but I don't. My partner, daughter and I are now living with my mother so I cant go to meetings as she'll want to know why (yes sobriety has to be the most important thing but this is a complicated issue with her that I dont want to get I to right now).
I'd love to say I have a foolproof plan but I don't. My partner, daughter and I are now living with my mother so I cant go to meetings as she'll want to know why (yes sobriety has to be the most important thing but this is a complicated issue with her that I dont want to get I to right now).
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Spending time here on SR is a good use of your time I think. You can learn a lot from those that have been through what you are going through.
If you'd like to participate in a recovery group like AA, the big book is online and free, and there are online AA meeting too - just google "online aa meetings'. The meat and potatoes of AA is working the steps and you don't need to necessarily be at meetings every day to do that.
There is a whole bunch of literature out there on recovery, maybe you could go to the library and check some out.
If you deal with anxiety it may not be a bad idea to see someone about that too - almost all of us deal with other underlying issues to our addiction - and the act of drinking does not cure them all in itself.
Lastly - try and take it easy if you can. The initial physical withdrawal from alcohol can take up to a couple of weeks - and it's not comfortable. Try and get enough sleep, drink lots of water, eat healthy food, and maybe try and take a walk or get some light exercise.
If you'd like to participate in a recovery group like AA, the big book is online and free, and there are online AA meeting too - just google "online aa meetings'. The meat and potatoes of AA is working the steps and you don't need to necessarily be at meetings every day to do that.
There is a whole bunch of literature out there on recovery, maybe you could go to the library and check some out.
If you deal with anxiety it may not be a bad idea to see someone about that too - almost all of us deal with other underlying issues to our addiction - and the act of drinking does not cure them all in itself.
Lastly - try and take it easy if you can. The initial physical withdrawal from alcohol can take up to a couple of weeks - and it's not comfortable. Try and get enough sleep, drink lots of water, eat healthy food, and maybe try and take a walk or get some light exercise.
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Sober For Good by Ann Fletcher has many diverse stories of how folks got and stay sober.
there is also a whole recovery bookthread up in newcomers.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ependence.html (Books on Recovery, Spirituality & Codependence)
there is also a whole recovery bookthread up in newcomers.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ependence.html (Books on Recovery, Spirituality & Codependence)
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