Fell off the Wagon
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Fell off the Wagon
Well, I had some beer last night. I didn't drink to the point of blacking out or losing my balance. I don't feel sick today. But I do feel like I've failed a bit. Back on the wagon today! I have 6 inches of snow to remove!
Honestly, while I was drinking I remember thinking "I'm not having much fun here. Why am I doing this?" Weird.
Honestly, while I was drinking I remember thinking "I'm not having much fun here. Why am I doing this?" Weird.
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Sometimes it takes a few relapses to realize that the party really is over.
Booze has stopped working.
It's like going back to an old well that hasn't had any water in it for a long time but out of desperation and habit, when life gets on top of us, we go back to the old source just to see if anything's changed.
It hasn't. The party hasn't reignited and it never will.
Booze has stopped working.
It's like going back to an old well that hasn't had any water in it for a long time but out of desperation and habit, when life gets on top of us, we go back to the old source just to see if anything's changed.
It hasn't. The party hasn't reignited and it never will.
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I had to accept that any amount of alcohol, regardless of whether I got drunk or not, simply fed my addiction.
Keep that up and it was only a matter of time before I binged again.
Make this a one off ABC - next time, come post here instead
D
Keep that up and it was only a matter of time before I binged again.
Make this a one off ABC - next time, come post here instead
D
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Originally Posted by Derringer 
Sometimes it takes a few relapses to realize that the party really is over.
Booze has stopped working.
It's like going back to an old well that hasn't had any water in it for a long time but out of desperation and habit, when life gets on top of us, we go back to the old source just to see if anything's changed.
It hasn't. The party hasn't reignited and it never will.
Booze has stopped working.
It's like going back to an old well that hasn't had any water in it for a long time but out of desperation and habit, when life gets on top of us, we go back to the old source just to see if anything's changed.
It hasn't. The party hasn't reignited and it never will.
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Thanks, everyone. Aside from feeling upset with myself, I've not felt too bad today. A little bit of hangover anxiety. I'll be better prepared to fight off the craving next weekend. Tonight I have a book and a fireplace to keep me company.
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honestly, while I was drinking I remember thinking "I'm not having much fun
I reached that point too, alcohol just didn’t get me the same old comfortable buzz, instead it made me feel like crap. That helped making quitting easier.
I reached that point too, alcohol just didn’t get me the same old comfortable buzz, instead it made me feel like crap. That helped making quitting easier.
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Quit working for me years ago really, but I kept relapsing trying to fins the magic buzz until I got smart enough to see, and more importantly accept, the party was really over.
Now I find sobriety so much better than any party or buzz, which was a surprisingly wonderful outcome and unexpected.
Now I find sobriety so much better than any party or buzz, which was a surprisingly wonderful outcome and unexpected.
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Originally Posted by Derringer
Sometimes it takes a few relapses to realize that the party really is over.
Booze has stopped working.
Booze has stopped working.
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