So after my last Friday of insanity I told myself no more alcohol. Friends invited me out and I did not plan on drinking and had no desire. I got in the car and thought am I going to wake up tomorrow wishing I didn’t go out?! No because I’m driving and know I can’t get crazy. I got there and everyone had ordered dinner and had a drink in front of them. As soon as the waitress came over I ordered a Shirley temple. Friends looked over and raised their eyebrows. But it was me not them. They didn’t pressure me maybe playing around for 10seconds and I switched it to a dirty Shirley. I only had one and ate dinner. The night ending with water and one drink. I really realized at that moment that it was all me! It didn’t even taste like anything. I really thought all night about why didn’t I just stick my drink of choice. Now I know who cares what others thing. I’ll stick to the Shirley! One day a time. It’s scary because I feel like it’s playing with Russian rollet but I’m aware and tonight when all my friends are partying I will be at home with the kids. Just going to avoid the night out. Just needed to share.

not a damn thing! My point exactly!