johntrevy

I'm just over 150 days now (hooray) and until then I had always relapsed in my dreams and even then whilst dreaming I was thinking "what are you doing man?". But last night I was dreaming that I went to an event and surrounded by drink and drunk people making a fool of themselves and I actually stayed sober. Now it wasn't all roses and petals though as there was this girl I used to like at school (for real) and she was in the dream too, we were not going out in the dream but I was going to ask her out. Anyways to cut a long story short she ended up getting really drunk with a person who was supposed to be my friend in the dream and they hooked up, I wasn't depressed I was really pissed off with her as I thought she really liked me. Now at that point in my dream I thought about picking up the drink so I would fit in, but I thought to myself "look at them, this crap isn't worth it. I should never come here in the first place" and I stayed sober. This is (I think) the first time I managed to resist relapsing in a dream state. And what is more better I didn't get what I call "The bleeding effect", where I would wake up in the same mood as I was in my dream (often depressed) which would stay with me for a few hours after I had awoken.
I feel like I have made a big step forward in my recovery with this, but I know I must not get complacent.

harriet11

Well done on 150 days
Good to hear you've had a more positive dream

shortstop81

Thanks for sharing that! That seems like a pretty big milestone, when your dreams start to reflect your new reality.

I'm also about 150+ days in. The past few weeks I've been having a LOT of drinking dreams (almost every night) and unfortunately each time I still take the drink. I wake up SUPER relieved that it was just a dream, so I suppose it's nice waking up feeling relieved!

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Dee74

My dreams changed like that too - it can only be a good thing John - congrats

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SuficintCrlsns

I kind of had the same thing the other night. The first part of the dream is a little foggy but I think I had had a couple of glasses of wine with dinner for whatever reason, and then I was having an epic battle of wills after finding a half bottle of vodka from my previous hiding place.

I was thinking to myself in the dream, 'It's not a full relapse yet, it's just some wine, stop now' but then I thought 'Well, I've already slipped, might as well make it a good one and then I'll quit tomorrow' It was at that point that I woke up, so I don't know which voice won the battle, haha.

It's funny how our brains can look at the same situation so differently from one moment to the next, even in a dream. I know in real life, if I did have a couple of glasses of wine or whatever, I would be in the same boat, good reminder.

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zoobadger

I hate using dreams but I think they might actually reinforce my commitment to sobriety by providing a vivid reminder of how much drinking sucks.

(I'm 18 months sober and the using dreams are less frequent, but still vivid and pretty painful).

August252015

Very cool John! My nightmares turned into vivid dreams then 'regular ones' (I have remembered most dreams since I was little)...and the drinking dreams pop up occasionally here thru my 4th yr. Tends to tie to when I am really stressed or thinking (too?) hard on something. And "drinking" dreams now means other people's drinking sometimes, too, not mine

Keep going!