SpankedbyLife

Been fighting this since my first ER stay in July 2017, longest I went sober was that July-Aug for just about 27 days or so. I ended up in the hospital 3 more times since that July - Oct for 3 day stays for withdrawal. I've quit many times again since then, I just have mild withdrawal every time but I still get insane cravings and make excuses to drink again within 24-30 hours of my last drink. Making this post to hopefully keep me from caving in over the next few days.

Fly N Buy

There comes a time for many of us which requires outside help as willpower alone isn't enough. My handle could have been SpankedByME as everything I did was self inflicted. That realization helped me overcome the years of not reaching out.

Best of luck, glad you're here with us.

Ghostlight1

Yes, good idea. Post here before you pick up the first drink.
I had a heck of a lot of day ones myself. Including two hospital visits.
I try to just not drink today. I drank alcoholically for thirty five years.
It took me a long time, and many failed attempts, to final get a daily reprieve.
That's been ten years now without a drink. One day at a time.

You can do it, too.
Do whatever it takes. My very life depended on it.
I wish you the best.

Dee74

Have you considered inpatient rehab SBL?

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SpankedbyLife

Yes, when I first started posting here almost 2 years ago I was completely against it. I worked it out with my job so that I could go on leave for a month, unpaid but still, I wouldn't lose my crappy retail job. But my health insurance won't pay for it at all, I have no way of paying for it, after my last paycheck I only had $18 left after paying my minimum payments..That's not including the $100+ I spent in that 2 week pay period on credit cards for vodka sadly. Lastly there's no one would could look after my 2 German Shepherds and 7 ferrets =\

Been in touch with the outpatient place I tried going to over a year ago, gave them a bad google review one drunk night about how they let people drink at the place during the sober meetings and they actually want to help more and fix the problems with the place they didn't know was going on. Going to hopefully start going there a few times a week again.

DayTrader

As hard as "quitting" is, for an alcoholic it tends to be the easiest part of the process.

The REAL key is in finding a way to stay stopped AND enjoy your life as you do so. Let's be real here, until we find a way to enjoy our life sober, we're not going to stay that way for long. Luckily, there are a lot of really cool "paths" to take in this regard - I found for myself, it was the path I found that made all the difference in the world.

SpankedbyLife

One thing that just confused me a lot is that I do the same things drunk that I do sober, I enjoy them more sober for the most part and regret doing them drunk every morning. Yet once I get home from work I "must" start drinking =\

Dee74

Do you have a plan to deal with those 'I must start drinking' thoughts?

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August252015

Hey, SBL - how's it going in the wk since you started this thread?

Dropsie

SBL,

Thinking about you.

How are you doing?