Ryabd

I think I was focused on the reasons I would have normally picked up a drink was what I was getting at. Honestly, I really never needed a reason it was just what I had become. The reasons really are just excuses for the behavior. Its going to be a while before I break this thinking I have a feeling. This weekend was specifically hard because it was the first sober weekend in a long time, We were snowed in and I generally felt like crap. I didn't expect such a huge amount of idle time within the first week! But I made it through and feel good about it today.

Ryabd

I am good and thank you for asking. I have one full and honest week under my belt and feel Ok, not great but fair to partly cloudy. The plan to get to the end of week 2 is to see my new therapist on Thursday, start implementing some changes at home on how I should take up some time in the evenings with something positive. I had a lot of time over the weekend to think about all the things I used to enjoy before drinking took over and how to start re introducing these things back into my life in a safe way.

I also plan on avoiding the things (and people) that I used to associate with having a drink.

But a week is a long time and I cant get to the end of the week without addressing today. The plan for today is not to drink and stay positive about that choice.

fini

yes, the change in perspective and thinking about the way we talk to ourselves about "why"...takes time and practice.