TnTPoP

I'm not a writer or poet but this has been in my head for the last week so I thought I would leave it here as I fight my second round of sobriety and guilt for inability to stop myself from hurting my wife and children:

When my Love
When my Love
Face awashed
Tears of sorry
Today my Love
Today my Love
or perhaps
....maybe tomorrow.......

TnTPoP

There is no controlling this beast for me... other than total abandonment. I have broken so many "today my love" promises...

Free2bme888

TnT-

Here’s a great post that you might like to read : Just tap on it and it will open up a post on drinking in moderation

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-drinking.html (Great advice for moderating your drinking)

TnTPoP

wow... its just what I was going though.

ScottFromWI

I hurt my wife and my family for years TnTPoP, so I know exactly how you feel.

Saying we are sorry is a noble gesture, but when it comes to addiction - action speaks far louder than words. I'm glad you are back here seeing sobriety again, have you quit drinking yet?

TnTPoP

I had quit and made it about year and a half then I decided to just "have a beer" instead of hard liquor and now I drink 50 ounces a day of beer - that may not seem like a lot to some of the drinking vets but its a habit now and I know it only gets worse from here.

Purpleman

TnTPoP my main motivation for quitting was to save my marriage. Like you I was constantly hurting my wife & kids, although it was only after separating & getting some alcohol free time up that I was able to realize just how much I'd hurt them.
We did get back together but it didn't last.
The lesson I learned was that, no matter how strong you think your love & relationship might be, trust is a finite thing & you can only stretch it so far. And once that trust is gone, once the point has been passed, it's incredibly hard to get it back.
Best wishes

least

Words are easy, but actions count more than words.

Dee74

welcome back TnTPop

make it today, not tomorrow

D

Ladysadie

Some real gut wrenching truths here. Listen up those that think your life is guaranteed with someone else. Get your ++it together.

Kdon853

11 months ago I attended an AA meeting to appease the wife and kids. Didn’t think I would stay but I did.
I Wanted this for me , I was definitely over the edge after 40 yrs of drinking. I used to say sorry all the time and it won’t happen again and those other words.
They didn’t matter until I stopped drinking and started to change.

SoberCAH

You hit the nail on the head.

I only got sober when I was so crushed by the force of daily drinking that I knew I had to get help.

On a particular day, I made the decision to drive myself to the treatment center and I haven't had a drink since.

To be clear, I finally got help waaaaaaaaaaaaaay after I should have and I drank for years after it had gotten to be pure misery.

So I'm not exactly a smart guy when it comes to drinking.

But on one day, I quit promising and intending to get help and actually went and did it.

We know you can do this TnTPop.

As the saying goes, just do it.

And, of course, keep us posted.

Dee74

How are you TnTPop?

TnTPoP

Succeeding

Dee74

good to hear

D

Stayingsassy

Good to hear for sure.

I had to do it for myself. Everyone thinks I did it because my husband was angry, but I was ready for peace and dignity: and eventually, peace and dignity returned to me.

lessgravity

I wrote that post TnT, I too struggled to quit for so many years, for myself, my family, kids, my spirit, etc etc.

How are you succeeding? That's really good to hear. It's such a better life, even if it's not perfect and it takes a lot of work, sober.