eve123

Day three. I’m going to post here each morning and evening. I cannot go through that withdrawal again I’m sick n tired and had enough. So if I can this is going to be part of my daily accountability and my final effort at recovery. This time I intend to do everything that is suggested as I can’t take any more insanity depression anxiety and crippling fear and pain. I’m done !

doggonecarl

It takes what it takes to get sober. I hope this is it for you. Good luck.

saoutchik

Rooting for you eve!

Ihadmyfill

You can do this!!

Ghostlight1

Good idea coming here every day. I do and I'm nine and a half years sober.
Just remember, you never have to suffer the fear, remorse and anxiety again if you just don't pick up that first drink.

We're all here with you.
Best wishes.

Helianthus

It takes a lot of courage to make the decision to quit for good, congratulations I wish you all the best

BullDog777

Where u at, Eve? your last post that I could find was this morning.

We can only help if you show up.

Also, please don't say final attempt. That could imply this is your last go at it.

I'm not kidding when I say I tried almost every day for 4 years to get sober and failed every time.

Worse comes to worse...go check yourself in somewhere to get mental help. They'll help you get off the booze there too.

Things only improve when positive action is taken.

Hang in there.

If you relapsed again, don't isolate. Come here.

Even and especially if you're still struggling.

eve123

Thabks all. I am here still bulldog managed to sleep last night. I’m gona call this my day three as it went on over time on day one. Stillhuge anxiety and the remode washes over me in waves. But I’m going for another 24 hours and whatever happens happens I’m not going to pick up. Years of struggling can’t just can’t do it anymore

zerominuszero20

why dont you just see a doctor?

BullDog777

Glad to see you're still hanging in there.

this is how it's done...one day, one hour at a time.

eve123

Thanks I will keep it in the min for as long as it takes. Have made commitment to speak my sponsor twice a day min and to make meetings regularly. Zero I didn’t feel as though I needed the doctor as I wasn’t a daily drinker but that’s not to say that I don’t suffer when I relapse. Thing is I’m on day three now so the physical aspects are better but now comes the hard way irk the psychological emotional cycle of my illness.

fini

hi eve, do you have available 'real life' support where you can spend sober time with others, preferably with those who get it and have found a way forward?
if not at this time, I would encourage you to find that and connect.

eve123

I have my Aa friends although I don’t see them as often as I’d like. Made it three day three had a craving in the shop earlier but I managed to walk away

Dee74

I think real life support is a great idea. I hope you can work out a way to see your AA friends more often, eve

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Hevyn

You sound determined, eve - we know you can do this.

fini

that's great, eve; for so many, going to any kind of meeting is a barrier, so you are well ahead of many by having already established contacts and friends.
use them....it's part of the program!
not 'using people', but for people to share and 'give away'....you will be giving them something

eve123

Thabks fini I have amazing friends in the fellowship I’m committed to keeping contact with them and speaking to fellowship and recovery people on a daily basis. Also daily chat with my sponsor. Day 4 today I 🙏🏼 Today I will go to bed sober

fini

and then, and sorry if you have talked about this before and I am ignorant of that, there are the steps.
you have a sponsor...what are your and their plans for the actual program?

eve123

Fini yes I have a sponsor and have attempted the steps in the past but didn’t give it my all. I relapsed so I’m giving them all my effort this time around.

Dee74

you're sounding good eve
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