DaniPistol

• hooking up with randoms
• vomiting
• getting kicked out of bars
• stumbling all over the place
• falling on my face
• waking up with bruises
• drunk text
• drunk calls
• the weight gain
• skipping class because I'm too hungover
• blacking out
• spending too much money at the bar
• losing stuff
• disappointing people
• fighting
• waking up in the hospital
• peeing the bed
• embarrassing myself
• the hangovers

the list goes on...

Jjb2018

Palpitation
Insomia
Panic attack
Stomach cramps
Isolation
Bloated
Stinky
Broke
Embarrasment
Loss of friend and family
Regrets
Rotating liquor store
Waiting the 9am to come to buy bose
Locating hidden staches
Throwing garbage in the middle of the nighr
Watch shows uve seen 100x
The panic when u run out of drink at 3am
The panic if dont have enough

Tynesider22

All of the above.

Few hotels I am barred from because of drunken accidents during the night.

Laqbrador66

insomnia
diarrhea
self hatred
dehydration
arrest
fear of DUI
wasted money
wasted time
dread
throwing up

I think insomnia tops the list for a reason. I woke up this morning and thought "remember going years without a good nights sleep?"

ScottFromWI

Everything ;-)

wildflower70

Being capable of truly loving and respecting myself....

Booze has taken that away from me....for the last time

matrac

In no particular order, but make no mistake, I hated .....
Hangovers
Fear of DUI
Fear of embarrassing myself in front of my children and husband
Fear of doing something wrong on the job
Not being able to think clearly
Wasted time
Wasted money
Weight gain
Loneliness
Being secretive and paranoid about my drinking
Worrying about withdrawal if my supply was low
Dreading any function where alcohol would not be available
Being there for the folks at home, but in a fog
Being ashamed of myself
Not remembering everything I said or did

These as well as many things mentioned by others

Outonthetiles

The double life
the constant lying to myself and others

D122y

Probably already said...but for my habit pattern...

Not getting sick much....better immune system
More aware of myself and my surroundings
More empathetic
More energy
Better at sexxxx
More self discipline
More consistent
Happier

Bottom line...I am like an improved version of myself.

All of my positive traits have magnified and my negative traits have diminished.

But....I still crave daily.

Thanks.

Stayingsassy

Many of the above but the number one most important:

1. Having total control over my thoughts and actions all the time, 24/7.

Branches

I don't miss watching other people watching me pour myself another glass.

WaterOx

and I'll add I don't miss watching MYSELF pour another. That dreadful feeling in the back of your mind that you have a problem you'll deal with just after one more. Ugh. I can feel it right now as I crave an ice cold beer on a warm evening. I obviously needed this thread.

Fear of DUI
hangovers
liver pain
checking to see if my eyes are yellow
paying close attention every time I go to the bathroom
rotating stores
self loathing
indigestion
high blood pressure
wasting money
feeling in a fog
obsessing about alcohol
planning my day around alcohol
planning my life around alcohol

Marcutah1

The look of disappointment in my wife's face when I did it again.

Snowydelrico

The vicious circle of alcoholic insanity
Don’t miss that one bit!

Gettingcloser

Having my husband find the drinks I had hid throughout the house and had completely forgot where I had put them.

Tynesider22

Not having the ability to plan the day without alcohol (if I couldn't drink that day, what the hell was I going to do)
My personal hygiene being non existent
If I did venture out, people telling me I stunk
Waking up covered in pee and feck knows what else.
My house being a tip and myself not actually wanting to stay in it (Hence the trips to nearby cheap hotels which I mentioned in an earlier post)
The weight gain
My mental health, which is already bad, being shot to pieces
Losing friends
Not having any money because it all went on booze
Lying to people to find ways to get alcohol
Missing out on occasions cos I either couldn't make it or wasn't invited
Living my life, drunk, online
Hangovers
Liver pain
Stomach pains
Feeling and being sick
Diarrhea

The thing is, why did we do it? Take alcohol out of the equation, there is not one thing on our lists that we would do normally, sober. I like term "alcoholic insanity", because it perfectly describes it.