Wish i could tell my mum i love her
 

And hold her and say it. But i cant. I hate this.

Welcome back novascotiapaddy - sorry to hear you are still struggling. How can we help?

I know the feeling. I lost my mother nine years ago and miss her so much. We used to talk on the phone every Saturday morning just to catch up on life. I would sit on my porch with a cup of coffee and weed my flowers while we talked. I miss those times. Her death left such a void in my life. Sending you warm thoughts and hugs.