Alcohol can ruin everything
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Alcohol can ruin everything
It's such a struggle. I have fallen again. Alcohol can make us lose our jobs, our families, our friends, our homes, everything - and yet we fall for it. I am a pretty strong person, but I am powerless against alcohol. I haven't hit rock bottom, I have a good family, home, etc... but, it has caused job loss. And that is a BIG problem. I MUST get help! I know it.
I'm venting because I feel like I am in a bad place right now, I know it will pass, but it is not good. I'm not drinking and am sober, but I want a drink, I feel like it is my only way of coping, and I know it isn't. Why cant they just invent a pill that would make us all better?
I'm venting because I feel like I am in a bad place right now, I know it will pass, but it is not good. I'm not drinking and am sober, but I want a drink, I feel like it is my only way of coping, and I know it isn't. Why cant they just invent a pill that would make us all better?
Done4Ever - I'm glad you posted your thoughts. It really helps to talk it over here.
I gave myself many do-overs before I got serious. I guess I just longed for when it was fun & relaxing to have a 'a few'. Yet I had proven to myself many times that once it was in my system, I was led into danger & an unpredictable outcome. You're right - it isn't a way to cope. It's a lie. It increases our anxiety & multiplies our troubles. I hope you'll make it past this temptation - there's nothing but misery in that drink.
I gave myself many do-overs before I got serious. I guess I just longed for when it was fun & relaxing to have a 'a few'. Yet I had proven to myself many times that once it was in my system, I was led into danger & an unpredictable outcome. You're right - it isn't a way to cope. It's a lie. It increases our anxiety & multiplies our troubles. I hope you'll make it past this temptation - there's nothing but misery in that drink.
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It's not a craving right now. It's misery - Alcohol has finally effected my job. I have been so good at hiding this problem, disease, illness, or what ever you want to call it, but for the first time in my life it finally has caused me to lose a job. Never had that happen before, but due to all the bad choices I make when drinking, the company can no longer keep me for risk of their embarrassment. So, now I have to start over, and that is putting me with very low self esteem right now, so it's hard to think about picking myself up. I know alcohol won't make me feel better, and I am not going to touch it today. But, damn if you don't just wish 5 years ago had started making different choices, or even further back.
Alcohol brought you to where you are now. How do you cope? By facing the consequences of your drinking, not drinking over them. You can't undo your mistakes, but you darn sure don't have to repeat them.
I had no idea how capable I was until I started looking into other ways to help me cope with life, Done.
Every time I solved a problem or got through something bad sober I got more capable.
It was hard, sure, but so's drinking like we did and trying to keep all those balls in the air.
Sobriety's got to be worth a shot?
Whats your recovery plan look like?
Got any support besides SR?
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Every time I solved a problem or got through something bad sober I got more capable.
It was hard, sure, but so's drinking like we did and trying to keep all those balls in the air.
Sobriety's got to be worth a shot?
Whats your recovery plan look like?
Got any support besides SR?
D
All any of us have is now. I understand kicking yourself for past actions, I've done plenty of that and still obsess over some of those things. But the thing is - there's absolutely nothing we can do about those things. They are just part of our stories now. When I look at them neutrally, it helps. Like, "Well that was ***'d up," and then consciously move on to now.
Keep not drinking.
There is no magic pill to cure you but visiting a psychiatrist who specializes in addiction might provide some help.
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Keep not drinking.
There is no magic pill to cure you but visiting a psychiatrist who specializes in addiction might provide some help.
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Like Dee asked - have you thought about a plan? You don't have to white knuckle this and do it - or try- on your own.
Most of us have found that a plan of action is necessary to make recovery happen, not just know it's something we need to do.
Most of us have found that a plan of action is necessary to make recovery happen, not just know it's something we need to do.
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I had a plan, and it obviously failed and then I made the ever existing excuses. I am looking into actually attending some AA meetings. Was always scared of this before. I can't do this alone. This is awful.
Yes, you can get sober. You don't have to do day 1 ever again. You have every reason to get on with your life! A new job is an opportunity to start fresh - to work in a place where colleagues only know you as energetic and competent. If you have to take a step or two back professionally, that's allright too. I really understand self-pity...but don't stay there too long. I look forward to hearing about your experiences in AA.
My experience was that once I sincerely decided to follow the program and got started, I had no further need to drink.
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did you think you could control it? I always thought I could when I went back. I couldn't stop binging but I could control the number of days I did it. Still awful!!!! Still worse than not drinking at all!
I'd have my butt in those chairs if I drank again too. Go for it. You'll have support.
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And I realize there are consequences for everything. My alcoholism put me in a place where someone else's actions made me look bad, even though I did not instigate. But, because I was drunk, I was there. If I hadn't been drinking I would of never been there. What a train wreck. I would of thought this would be different. I would of thought another DUI or accident would get me in trouble, not someone else.
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