Day 1.
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Well on the bright side....you chose the proper user name, didn’t you? Buduh-tishh!
But seriously there must be something to this 4.5 mark because that’s exactly where I am and it suuuuuuuuuuuucks.
I feel like sobriety is dangling by a string.
Whatever.......still here. Just saying, it IS “so hard, sohard
This is my longest quit ever. Will I blow it? At this point I don’t even care. Obsessing about it makes me even more stressed. Just for today. Tomorrow may be different.
I’ve been saying that for 4.5 months
But seriously there must be something to this 4.5 mark because that’s exactly where I am and it suuuuuuuuuuuucks.
I feel like sobriety is dangling by a string.
Whatever.......still here. Just saying, it IS “so hard, sohard
This is my longest quit ever. Will I blow it? At this point I don’t even care. Obsessing about it makes me even more stressed. Just for today. Tomorrow may be different.
I’ve been saying that for 4.5 months
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Join Date: Oct 2017
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Thanks Mac/Bull Dog for checking up!
I think I am really getting on steadier ground. I actually went to a Memorial Day pool barbecue and acted as the designated driver. It was good to have that responsibility. The past month (after falling off and starting drinking after 4 months) was sheer hell. HELL. In a weird way, it was more hellacious than prior to quitting at all, because now I was living in a craving/hungover/guilty state and yet I knew what a healthy state felt like. I really think I get now that I can't drink. Ever. I mean, I really can't. My body just doesn't react the way a person's does who can safely imbibe. And that's okay. As long as I don't imbibe, then fine. I'm actually a lot more "normal" when I am not drinking than I am when I am trying to be "normal" and drinking. Agh. Anyway, I feel great on this day 8. I felt great before, so I hope it really sticks this time, but I feel great. I'm grateful for that! Thank you for your support!!!
I think I am really getting on steadier ground. I actually went to a Memorial Day pool barbecue and acted as the designated driver. It was good to have that responsibility. The past month (after falling off and starting drinking after 4 months) was sheer hell. HELL. In a weird way, it was more hellacious than prior to quitting at all, because now I was living in a craving/hungover/guilty state and yet I knew what a healthy state felt like. I really think I get now that I can't drink. Ever. I mean, I really can't. My body just doesn't react the way a person's does who can safely imbibe. And that's okay. As long as I don't imbibe, then fine. I'm actually a lot more "normal" when I am not drinking than I am when I am trying to be "normal" and drinking. Agh. Anyway, I feel great on this day 8. I felt great before, so I hope it really sticks this time, but I feel great. I'm grateful for that! Thank you for your support!!!
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Good good.
Keep coming here, keep reading everything that seems relevant.
One breath at a time. Do you do any breathing exercises? I like this one, it focuses my thinking to the most basic level and resets my anxiety (vagus nerve.)
4-- 4-- 4-- 4-- I do it whenever my thinking becomes unmanageable - about anything. Always works.
Box Breathing - Navy SEALS
Keep coming here, keep reading everything that seems relevant.
One breath at a time. Do you do any breathing exercises? I like this one, it focuses my thinking to the most basic level and resets my anxiety (vagus nerve.)
4-- 4-- 4-- 4-- I do it whenever my thinking becomes unmanageable - about anything. Always works.
Box Breathing - Navy SEALS
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