silentrun

I have been having multiple drinking dreams again. I'm not actually drinking in the dream it's just that I have been all this time and it's been fine. In reality it's been fine because I haven't drank. Anyone else? I'm not having any urges or anything like that. No way do I want to get sucked back into that hell again.

golfreggie

Hi, 27 years sober here, and believe it or not even recently I dreamed where I was drinking beer. Can't remember why, but I wake up and giggle, then go on living. The cool thing you shared is that you are not thinking of drinking, That is the message of hope, thanks

Cosima11

My first thought when I read this is maybe you're reconciling with your past in a way. Like yes you used to drink, you're not doing it now, and everything is ok.

Just a thought but as long as you're not having any actual urges I guess I'd say don't read too much into it?

FBL

Nearly 9 years sober and I still get them on occasion. Just be glad they are only dreams!

lessgravity

I recently had a dream that I murdered my friend's cat. Interestingly, after waking, I did not have any worries that I might murder my friend's cat.

If only it was the same with drinking dreams.

Thank you for the post and thank you for the inspiration.

Dee74

For many years I dreamt of high school...I had no waking desire to go back thee tho

I still have the occasional drinking dream,. although truth be told I'm nearly always frustrated in my attempts to drink.

Amusing


congrats on 5 years silentrun

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silentrun

LOL right! Well, I guess I'll chalk it up to my hypervigilance showing itself again. In the dream I'm always like "NOOOOOWHYYYYYYYY??????" In waking life there isn't a day that goes by that I can't believe my luck in escaping before it killed me.

Thanks all.

JeffreyAK

I very occasionally have them after 7+ years. I can never figure out exactly what triggers those dreams, or any dreams in fact, but I reckon it's just my brain's way of processing something, maybe something I paid little attention to at the time. An alcohol advertisement, maybe, or a flash of a memory of something in my drinking past, who knows. Dreams can be wonderful experiences, or nightmares, but they're all still just dreams.

dirk41

I spent so much time hiding alcohol and drinking in secret, and I have vivid dreams weekly about it still years later.

Good reminders I suppose

anxiousrock

I feel bad that you’re still having to have those dreams. They are so real and often terrifying!
I didn’t know myself how long they last for but I guess it’s something I should get used to.

damascus1986

7 years here. they come and go. almost when i forget about them then they come back.

waynetheking

Yep I had one not too long ago. I woke up with a lot of gratitude. Maybe it's God's way of saying don't ever forget it's a disease.

tomsteve

i started a thread a couple months ago on drinkin dreams:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...in-dreams.html (drinkin dreams)

NYCDoglvr

At 26 years I have one or two drunk dreams per year. It's normal even after some time.

Carlotta

I have 5 years too and I had one of those dreams a couple of months ago. Seems like everyone has them once in a while.

2ndhandrose

silentrun, I read your thread last night, just before I went to bed.

3 and a bit years sober and guess what I dreamed about last night?

Yep, it was a drinking dream

silentrun

Great thread. especially this:

Yup, I guess that's part of the concern that I "rest on my laurels" because I really don't want to screw up my second chance. I don't think I will. I'm still just as committed to doing whatever it takes as I ever was. I thought going to an AA meeting just so I had to say out loud "i'm an alcoholic". Next dream maybe.

SoberLeigh

It is so good to see you, silentrun.

I still have the occasional drinking dream and sometimes they come in sets of two or three and they are always unsettling.

I think that our consciences are always trying to resolve past issues and that maybe we do the same in our subconscious dream states. Our brains are amazing things.

The important thing to me is that my brain continues to say "No".

tomsteve

some fears are healthy fears.

silentrun

I just remembered something. When I decided I'd had enough I thought to myself I'd wouldn't last 5 more years the way I was going. If I didn't poison myself I probably would have committed suicide. I really don't know how people survive with this thing for decades. The anxiety, shame, and soul crushing depression nearly broke me. I don't have what it takes to be an active alcoholic.