sherlockholmes2

This is day 62 for me, very pleased I've made it this far but I don't think I feel as well as I had hoped I would at this point. I suppose years of abusing my body doesn't go away in a couple of months.

I've realised I don't really know what normal feels like anymore. I'm pretty sure it's not this, though. I feel hyper-sensitive to every thought and physical feeling. My emotions are still very up and down but it's the physical sensations that are the weirdest.

It's like I am acutely aware of every nerve ending in my body, and I worry constantly about what it means. What does that feeling mean? Is it serious? Then onto something else, and on it goes. Finding a peaceful place within myself to recover is not proving easy.

Sorry if that sounds like a ramble, but at this point I can see why people relapse, because this is a scary experience at times. However, I am determined to see it through whether that takes another 2 months or 2 years.

Jennifer7162

Keep up your program...It does get better.

CreativeThinker

Things started evening out for me after 90 days. Have you tried exercising? It really helped me! Hang in there and stay busy! You can do this!

Anna

Congratulations on 62 days of sobriety. It sounds like you're doing well. I think it was close to 90 days for me before I felt 'normal'.

Mac4711

Same here, it took about 90 days, then it started to level off. Every so often, there are short episodes of craving (like before a party on Xmas eve, where I felt sad that I ‘couldn’t drink like everybody else’), but these moments are fleeting.
Sherlock, just hang tough and say ‘FU’ when your AV shows up!