Trying to put myself out there
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Trying to put myself out there
New to all of this. Admitting I have an issue. Feels like I gave up on an old friend when that friend has done nothing but harm to my life. It's day 3 of sobriety alone. And night 3 of barely any sleep. First night, 3 hours. Last night, 1 and tonight will be maybe 1 or 2 before I have to wake up for work.
Avoided a work gathering earlier because I'm not even close enough to trusting myself in any situation like that.
Just feeling kinda alone with everything right now and the isolation of not being social doesn't help.
Any suggestions on anything from anyone?
Avoided a work gathering earlier because I'm not even close enough to trusting myself in any situation like that.
Just feeling kinda alone with everything right now and the isolation of not being social doesn't help.
Any suggestions on anything from anyone?
Sounds like you were smart in avoiding the work situation.
Be easy with yourself. I am having to learn that - I was not taking care of myself at all when I was drinking, so I am learning to do that and trying to just give myself a break, to go easy. I do what I can do each day.
Sleeping is a big thing all of us new to sobriety talk about. I have been taking melatonin and it helps a bit. Also doing calm/ritual things to get ready for bed, taking hot boths/showers, drinking tea (esp chamomile/sleepytime), etc. I read before bed. Reading alcoholism memoirs have given me some comfort knowing that there are others out there. I normally fall asleep with Kindle in hand these days not passing out like before. And reading on here and posting. I was here a long time before and would leave because I was drinking again because I felt I didn't belong. Don't make that mistake. Read, post, reach out. We understand - hang in there
Be easy with yourself. I am having to learn that - I was not taking care of myself at all when I was drinking, so I am learning to do that and trying to just give myself a break, to go easy. I do what I can do each day.
Sleeping is a big thing all of us new to sobriety talk about. I have been taking melatonin and it helps a bit. Also doing calm/ritual things to get ready for bed, taking hot boths/showers, drinking tea (esp chamomile/sleepytime), etc. I read before bed. Reading alcoholism memoirs have given me some comfort knowing that there are others out there. I normally fall asleep with Kindle in hand these days not passing out like before. And reading on here and posting. I was here a long time before and would leave because I was drinking again because I felt I didn't belong. Don't make that mistake. Read, post, reach out. We understand - hang in there
At the beginning, I was like a rocket leaving earth gravity.
It was taking every single drop of fuel I had in me to make it one foot higher.
I knew the first days were critical and should be taken one hour at a time but it was tough.
Then things got a lot easier after 5 days...
I drank a lot of water, slept a lot and went to a few AA meetings to see how other alcoholics like me were able to quit. That helped a lot even if I'm not a 12 steps programs fan.
SR was a major tool for me on staying sober and to reach one year sober 2 weeks ago (yesss!)
Hang in here Rustedwheel, visit us any time, it's open 24/7
It was taking every single drop of fuel I had in me to make it one foot higher.
I knew the first days were critical and should be taken one hour at a time but it was tough.
Then things got a lot easier after 5 days...
I drank a lot of water, slept a lot and went to a few AA meetings to see how other alcoholics like me were able to quit. That helped a lot even if I'm not a 12 steps programs fan.
SR was a major tool for me on staying sober and to reach one year sober 2 weeks ago (yesss!)
Hang in here Rustedwheel, visit us any time, it's open 24/7
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I agree with SoulShine that sleep is a big topic on the forums. Mine has finally evened out a bit, but I still get pretty anxious upon laying down. I don't want drunk sleep back, that's for sure. However, I do miss the days of head hitting the pillow with complete pass out. But the mornings.... UGH!
To keep the anxious thoughts at bay, I've been using ambient sounds on my phone (various apps). Current fav is wind, but I like rain too. Its amazing the apps for these things! I remember when you had to buy an actual ambient sound machine. LOL! Anyways, been helping me. Maybe it can help you too RW.
Oh, and I ditched my work Xmas party because I didn't think I could easily deal with the 2 drink tickets, and major alcohol consumption going on around me. My sobriety comes first these days. That won't be forever, but today, that's what's up.
To keep the anxious thoughts at bay, I've been using ambient sounds on my phone (various apps). Current fav is wind, but I like rain too. Its amazing the apps for these things! I remember when you had to buy an actual ambient sound machine. LOL! Anyways, been helping me. Maybe it can help you too RW.
Oh, and I ditched my work Xmas party because I didn't think I could easily deal with the 2 drink tickets, and major alcohol consumption going on around me. My sobriety comes first these days. That won't be forever, but today, that's what's up.
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Im a newb here, and to sobriety to, but melatonin does help most of the time and its cheap. you may have to take more than the recommended dose. I had an all nighter, brain going a million miles a minute last night, tried reading books I have read a dozen times nothing worked. fell asleep at 4 this morning. but just a while ago I would do that for fun and then have the hangover the next day
Drink lots of water. Flush it out. Your sleep will return. You will feel so much better. A couple of more days it will turn around. My first week was pure hell. I should have gone to the doctor. I was ok. Just sick as a dog. This is your last time to do this if you want sobriety. Just don't drink and do something about it.
We're here for ya. Hi I'm wayne.
We're here for ya. Hi I'm wayne.
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Holy ****. I ended up getting 45 minutes of sleep and working more than 12 hours today. I was a zombie. I still am. Fought the temptation to go out for drinks and just came home. Logged on and just am overwhelmed at the support. Knowing I made the right decisions. Knowing that sleep will get easier. All of you who've commented are amazing and Thank you.
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Holy ****. I ended up getting 45 minutes of sleep and working more than 12 hours today. I was a zombie. I still am. Fought the temptation to go out for drinks and just came home. Logged on and just am overwhelmed at the support. Knowing I made the right decisions. Knowing that sleep will get easier. All of you who've commented are amazing and Thank you.
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Why is everyone on this site so amazing? I literally smile at reading the support and feel that a group of people I don't even know, truly are there for me. It's a weird feeling. Also, after working a 12.5 hour day, I feel like I have more energy for the first time in forever. I'd usually just hit the bottle until I passed out. Now I get home, make some food, log on to this and get inspired.
Great job Rustedwheel,
Do you have a plan for this first weekend of your new sobriety? Us alcoholics have short term memory loss early in recovery. We feel better than ever, start looking better, and we think maybe one drink would just make us feel that much better. I know I had a few set backs thinking this way. So to set yourself up for success have sober plans with contingencies. Good luck
Do you have a plan for this first weekend of your new sobriety? Us alcoholics have short term memory loss early in recovery. We feel better than ever, start looking better, and we think maybe one drink would just make us feel that much better. I know I had a few set backs thinking this way. So to set yourself up for success have sober plans with contingencies. Good luck
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