Broken sobriety
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Broken sobriety
So I posted here a while ago after I suffered from alcohol induced pancreatitis. I drank a half bottle of whiskey and atleast 8 to 10 pints of stout everyday for 2 years solid. I was sober 2 years after my pancreatits. And I was told by my doctor quite innocently if I were to drink again to take it easy this was 2 years after I'd stopped drinking. During these 2 years I wanted nothing more than a drink. Even though I was aware of the pain it caused me. And when the doctor told me I could drink I did. And I have somehow found moderation. One thing I will say is. I have been drinking again 5 months and as I said found moderation, however it has took this time to realise, my time without alcohol was my happiest time. Alcohol even though I can control it, gets in the way of everything I drink 2 days a week Friday and a few glasses of wine on Sunday. Although I admit I get drunk on the Friday. However I was happier clean living. Alcohol does no favours health ways or contribution to life in any way. I thought I'd share as I would have killed for a second chance at having a drink... I got it.... it sucked.... even in moderation.
What I miss the most from my three years of sobriety was how authentic and wonderful simple my life was. I could experience all of life and not feel tempted to drink. I cannot believe I threw it all away. I want that back so badly. Here's to "it only gets better from here."
I had recent blood tests and a CT scan of my abdomen, because I had a dull pain where my gallbladder is, along with swelling in the groin and pain along my kidneys and right shoulder. They said all looked normal.
After a bender the symptoms flared again. Hearing about your alcohol-related pancreatitis has me wondering if I should get a second opinion...
Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me that the sober life - pure and sober - is really the best way to go.
I had recent blood tests and a CT scan of my abdomen, because I had a dull pain where my gallbladder is, along with swelling in the groin and pain along my kidneys and right shoulder. They said all looked normal.
After a bender the symptoms flared again. Hearing about your alcohol-related pancreatitis has me wondering if I should get a second opinion...
Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me that the sober life - pure and sober - is really the best way to go.
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What I miss the most from my three years of sobriety was how authentic and wonderful simple my life was. I could experience all of life and not feel tempted to drink. I cannot believe I threw it all away. I want that back so badly. Here's to "it only gets better from here."
I had recent blood tests and a CT scan of my abdomen, because I had a dull pain where my gallbladder is, along with swelling in the groin and pain along my kidneys and right shoulder. They said all looked normal.
After a bender the symptoms flared again. Hearing about your alcohol-related pancreatitis has me wondering if I should get a second opinion...
Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me that the sober life - pure and sober - is really the best way to go.
I had recent blood tests and a CT scan of my abdomen, because I had a dull pain where my gallbladder is, along with swelling in the groin and pain along my kidneys and right shoulder. They said all looked normal.
After a bender the symptoms flared again. Hearing about your alcohol-related pancreatitis has me wondering if I should get a second opinion...
Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me that the sober life - pure and sober - is really the best way to go.
Hmm... I think I must be missing something here, because I'm having trouble making sense of your post... Let's see if I can sum this up:
1) You were able to stop drinking through mindfulness and meditation.
2) You felt great sober, your happiest times have been those without alcohol, alcohol doesn't contribute to your life in any way.
3) Yet you resumed drinking, and now you're unhappy despite being able to "moderate" through mindfulness and meditation.
So, I guess my obvious question would be: If your mindfulness and meditation give you such great "control" over your drinking, why not quit entirely again? It should be a cinch, right?
1) You were able to stop drinking through mindfulness and meditation.
2) You felt great sober, your happiest times have been those without alcohol, alcohol doesn't contribute to your life in any way.
3) Yet you resumed drinking, and now you're unhappy despite being able to "moderate" through mindfulness and meditation.
So, I guess my obvious question would be: If your mindfulness and meditation give you such great "control" over your drinking, why not quit entirely again? It should be a cinch, right?
Hi Patrick
I used to have some pretty iffy definitions of 'doing ok'.
I'm betting your Dr didn't know the full story About your drinking either?
I was good at that selective storytelling as well.
One of those Friday night benders might well kick off your pancreatitis again...or worse.
I think you'd be better off with full sobriety.
D
I used to have some pretty iffy definitions of 'doing ok'.
I'm betting your Dr didn't know the full story About your drinking either?
I was good at that selective storytelling as well.
One of those Friday night benders might well kick off your pancreatitis again...or worse.
I think you'd be better off with full sobriety.
D
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I'm having difficulty with the doctor saying you could drink again. It seems to me that the doctor would advise you to not drink given the fact that you drank yourself sick. Was the doctor not aware of your alcohol induced pancreatitis? I'm not being mean and I hope it doesn't come across that way. I'm just confused.
If you are happy sober than perhaps it is the best route. Also, moderation only seems to work for so long until it just does not work any longer. Just an opinion.
If you are happy sober than perhaps it is the best route. Also, moderation only seems to work for so long until it just does not work any longer. Just an opinion.
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