I drank!!!
I hope you come back and read this after you've sobered up and feel like hell, and notice how that little voice lied when it convinced you that you wanted more and more, when deep down you knew that nothing good would come from it.
Samantha
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Join Date: Sep 2017
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Many of us faltered a time or two Anarock.
Best thing to do is look back at what happened, think about what you could do differently, decide what you need to add to your recovery programme and then...keep on walking forward.
D
Best thing to do is look back at what happened, think about what you could do differently, decide what you need to add to your recovery programme and then...keep on walking forward.
D
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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I recently started again after almost 60 days of sobriety. I was feeling great and never wanted to go back there, yet I did. I tried to convince myself that I could handle it and drink moderately. Well I can't. I guess when on the first time you drink you are able to "moderate" yourself to only 4 shots of vodka and you consider that good then you know there is an issue. Or that the thought of only having a drink or two is laughable is a warning sign.
The key here is that when you remember how good you think alcohol made you feel, remember the times it made you feel sicker than a dog. Would you rather wake up with a headache or wake up feeling refreshed, maybe hit the gym, go for a walk, etc.? These are things I have to remind myself.
Once you take that first drink everything changes in an instant, and grabs you and pulls you in. The key is to not drink. Just don't do it. I have to tell myself that today.
The key here is that when you remember how good you think alcohol made you feel, remember the times it made you feel sicker than a dog. Would you rather wake up with a headache or wake up feeling refreshed, maybe hit the gym, go for a walk, etc.? These are things I have to remind myself.
Once you take that first drink everything changes in an instant, and grabs you and pulls you in. The key is to not drink. Just don't do it. I have to tell myself that today.
Samantha
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You guys make it sound easy "don't drink".
So I counted what I drank and it was 12 drinks over the span of about 7 hours.
I was never out of control, or sick, or anything bad.
For me that's a win I guess. I used to just drink and never stop. I would have kept drinking until 3am and not stop early.
Now I am ready to be sober again.
So I counted what I drank and it was 12 drinks over the span of about 7 hours.
I was never out of control, or sick, or anything bad.
For me that's a win I guess. I used to just drink and never stop. I would have kept drinking until 3am and not stop early.
Now I am ready to be sober again.
Anarock,
what you're saying there is this:
i chose this,
i was never out of control,
never anything bad,
that's a win,
now i'm ready to be sober again.
okay. with this kind of "win" in your pocket, why be sober? do you see? if you're freely choosing, and in control, and nothing bad happens and you get neither drunk nor sick....then why would you actually get sober? or want to get and stay sober?
possibly there is more to the story?
what you're saying there is this:
i chose this,
i was never out of control,
never anything bad,
that's a win,
now i'm ready to be sober again.
okay. with this kind of "win" in your pocket, why be sober? do you see? if you're freely choosing, and in control, and nothing bad happens and you get neither drunk nor sick....then why would you actually get sober? or want to get and stay sober?
possibly there is more to the story?
12 drinks in a day is a huge amount of alcohol. I used to drink that much routinely during the week, when I had to go to work the next day, and I never got wild or did crazy things or threw up. The only reason I was able to drink that much was because I had a huge tolerance built up from being an addict. And when I occasionally decided to drink 9 instead of 12, I'd pat myself on the back, "See, there, I can control it!", and the next night I'd drink 14.
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"You guys make it sound easy "don't drink". "
I think the message that is trying to be conveyed , is that the solution is simple, don't drink, not necessarily that it is easy, but once you decide to quit for good, fullstop, it does get easier.
I think the message that is trying to be conveyed , is that the solution is simple, don't drink, not necessarily that it is easy, but once you decide to quit for good, fullstop, it does get easier.
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You guys make it sound easy "don't drink".
So I counted what I drank and it was 12 drinks over the span of about 7 hours.
I was never out of control, or sick, or anything bad.
For me that's a win I guess. I used to just drink and never stop. I would have kept drinking until 3am and not stop early.
Now I am ready to be sober again.
So I counted what I drank and it was 12 drinks over the span of about 7 hours.
I was never out of control, or sick, or anything bad.
For me that's a win I guess. I used to just drink and never stop. I would have kept drinking until 3am and not stop early.
Now I am ready to be sober again.
I am 30 hours into my sobriety. So darn tired and anxious. I think I slept for 2 hours last night. Counting the hours til I feel better. I really drank way to much. 3 18 packs in 3 days of beer. I can't remember much of those days all I remember was constantly drinking all day and into the early morning. I think I might of passed out in bed but really never got a good nights sleep. I can't wait to be able to function again.
This behavior has got to stop. Why do I think drinking is a solution? I need to have a better plan for when my AV demands a beer. I had no control and spent money I don't have on alcohol. Trying not to get depressed but, I really hate what I have done to myself. My head is a mess.
This behavior has got to stop. Why do I think drinking is a solution? I need to have a better plan for when my AV demands a beer. I had no control and spent money I don't have on alcohol. Trying not to get depressed but, I really hate what I have done to myself. My head is a mess.
12 drinks in a day is a huge amount of alcohol. I used to drink that much routinely during the week, when I had to go to work the next day, and I never got wild or did crazy things or threw up. The only reason I was able to drink that much was because I had a huge tolerance built up from being an addict. And when I occasionally decided to drink 9 instead of 12, I'd pat myself on the back, "See, there, I can control it!", and the next night I'd drink 14.
I am 30 hours into my sobriety. So darn tired and anxious. I think I slept for 2 hours last night. Counting the hours til I feel better. I really drank way to much. 3 18 packs in 3 days of beer. I can't remember much of those days all I remember was constantly drinking all day and into the early morning. I think I might of passed out in bed but really never got a good nights sleep. I can't wait to be able to function again.
This behavior has got to stop. Why do I think drinking is a solution? I need to have a better plan for when my AV demands a beer. I had no control and spent money I don't have on alcohol. Trying not to get depressed but, I really hate what I have done to myself. My head is a mess.
This behavior has got to stop. Why do I think drinking is a solution? I need to have a better plan for when my AV demands a beer. I had no control and spent money I don't have on alcohol. Trying not to get depressed but, I really hate what I have done to myself. My head is a mess.
Ya. I have tried to remember how sick I get when I drink.
I really don't know why it doesn't matter until it is too late. I have to get more serious about quitting before it is too late.
I really don't know why it doesn't matter until it is too late. I have to get more serious about quitting before it is too late.
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