Started drinking again
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Been a while since I posted but I've been off alcohol for probably around a month or so. Don't know the exact date because I haven't been keeping track. But it's come at the price that I've been using painkillers everyday since. I need not tell anyone the usual, started with a little bit and by now I already have a high tolerance. Doesn't help that I used to use opiates a couple years ago.
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I honestly don't have the drive to want to get off either. I enjoy the fact that I can take them and not worry about the hangover alcohol brings...however I know sooner or later I will deal with WD if I keep taking more and more.
I also feel somewhat ashamed that I have this problem. I guess I want to stop but I don't. I honestly don't know why I am posting this if I am not ready to commit to sobriety, but I suppose the knowledge that I am part of an online support system makes me feel somewhat better. :/
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I honestly don't have the drive to want to get off either. I enjoy the fact that I can take them and not worry about the hangover alcohol brings...however I know sooner or later I will deal with WD if I keep taking more and more.
I also feel somewhat ashamed that I have this problem. I guess I want to stop but I don't. I honestly don't know why I am posting this if I am not ready to commit to sobriety, but I suppose the knowledge that I am part of an online support system makes me feel somewhat better. :/
You'll know this if you've been hooked on opiates before, but you really will regret not nipping this in the bud now Treeguy.
Take a read though the substance abuse forum.
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Take a read though the substance abuse forum.
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I'm sorry Dropsie--
treeguy, the opiates truly will lead you to hell and bankruptcy quick as the booze, or quicker.
They are also very hard to kick--in fact, dual addiction is just a place you don't
want to go ever.
treeguy, the opiates truly will lead you to hell and bankruptcy quick as the booze, or quicker.
They are also very hard to kick--in fact, dual addiction is just a place you don't
want to go ever.
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But, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the comments / advice.
Man...opiates are scary s#it. I've lost several friends to painkillers over the years.
Lemme ask you this...an I get why...I understand the struggle...i hear you.
What's holding you back from just going to the ER and telling them you're in trouble?
You can always leave. Nobody can hold you there. Maybe there's some options you haven't thought of to get some help.
Lemme ask you this...an I get why...I understand the struggle...i hear you.
What's holding you back from just going to the ER and telling them you're in trouble?
You can always leave. Nobody can hold you there. Maybe there's some options you haven't thought of to get some help.
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I stopped alcohol use when I started using. I know the dangers of mixing the two and that wasn't something I wanted to get into. I know how hard they are to kick, I'm already at that point. Not as bad as some people maybe, but at a point where I already feel powerless to them. I can hear a part of me saying I wish I was not doing this but I have absolutely zero motivation to stay away. I love them and I hate them at the same time.
But, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the comments / advice.
But, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the comments / advice.
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I stopped alcohol use when I started using. I know the dangers of mixing the two and that wasn't something I wanted to get into. I know how hard they are to kick, I'm already at that point. Not as bad as some people maybe, but at a point where I already feel powerless to them. I can hear a part of me saying I wish I was not doing this but I have absolutely zero motivation to stay away. I love them and I hate them at the same time.
But, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the comments / advice.
But, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the comments / advice.
I spent so much money on opiates that I went broke. When the money ran out I went back to alcohol.
Just my experience.
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Man...opiates are scary s#it. I've lost several friends to painkillers over the years.
Lemme ask you this...an I get why...I understand the struggle...i hear you.
What's holding you back from just going to the ER and telling them you're in trouble?
You can always leave. Nobody can hold you there. Maybe there's some options you haven't thought of to get some help.
Lemme ask you this...an I get why...I understand the struggle...i hear you.
What's holding you back from just going to the ER and telling them you're in trouble?
You can always leave. Nobody can hold you there. Maybe there's some options you haven't thought of to get some help.
Anyways, I am thinking about getting on a Suboxone program maybe. There is a medical practice right near where I live that specializes in opiate addiction, I already gave them a call and left a message.
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I stopped using alcohol when I found opiates as well. I found alcohol canceled out the high I got from opiates. The opiates won't last though. It will take you down a dark road. I hit my bottom quick once I found opiates.
I spent so much money on opiates that I went broke. When the money ran out I went back to alcohol.
Just my experience.
I spent so much money on opiates that I went broke. When the money ran out I went back to alcohol.
Just my experience.
Going to the ER would be pointless, I'm not at a point where I consider myself to need a medical detox.
Anyways, I am thinking about getting on a Suboxone program maybe. There is a medical practice right near where I live that specializes in opiate addiction, I already gave them a call and left a message.
Anyways, I am thinking about getting on a Suboxone program maybe. There is a medical practice right near where I live that specializes in opiate addiction, I already gave them a call and left a message.
Going to the ER would be pointless, I'm not at a point where I consider myself to need a medical detox.
Anyways, I am thinking about getting on a Suboxone program maybe. There is a medical practice right near where I live that specializes in opiate addiction, I already gave them a call and left a message.
Anyways, I am thinking about getting on a Suboxone program maybe. There is a medical practice right near where I live that specializes in opiate addiction, I already gave them a call and left a message.
I get the not wanting to let it go tg, but imagine just a bit ahead.
Your minimum amount will go up, prescription stuff will get too expensive,
you'll look for cheaper on the street, and who knows what that is
Everything you've worked for will be lost--sold or hocked to keep it going
just a bit longer--friends and family will get angry and alienated from you
asking for money, still using, etc.
But the worst comes at the end of all that, when you have nothing to exchange
for the opiate high, and your craving is stronger than ever.
That's a hell like no other I hear--a Devil and Miss Jones ending where what
you most need is the thing you can't afford to buy and have nothing left
to exchange for it.
By then you'll be drinking or whatever you can do to offset the pain.
Maybe you'll mix one day and not wake up.
Think it can't happen? It does all the time.
You're already an addict to alcohol. You know this.
Sounds like you are clearly aware the opiates have you now too.
Shake off your complacency and save yourself--glad to hear you made appointment,
but reach out anywhere / anyway you can right now to fix this.
Really
Your minimum amount will go up, prescription stuff will get too expensive,
you'll look for cheaper on the street, and who knows what that is
Everything you've worked for will be lost--sold or hocked to keep it going
just a bit longer--friends and family will get angry and alienated from you
asking for money, still using, etc.
But the worst comes at the end of all that, when you have nothing to exchange
for the opiate high, and your craving is stronger than ever.
That's a hell like no other I hear--a Devil and Miss Jones ending where what
you most need is the thing you can't afford to buy and have nothing left
to exchange for it.
By then you'll be drinking or whatever you can do to offset the pain.
Maybe you'll mix one day and not wake up.
Think it can't happen? It does all the time.
You're already an addict to alcohol. You know this.
Sounds like you are clearly aware the opiates have you now too.
Shake off your complacency and save yourself--glad to hear you made appointment,
but reach out anywhere / anyway you can right now to fix this.
Really
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I get the not wanting to let it go tg, but imagine just a bit ahead.
Your minimum amount will go up, prescription stuff will get too expensive,
you'll look for cheaper on the street, and who knows what that is
By then you'll be drinking or whatever you can do to offset the pain.
Maybe you'll mix one day and not wake up.
Think it can't happen? It does all the time.
Your minimum amount will go up, prescription stuff will get too expensive,
you'll look for cheaper on the street, and who knows what that is
By then you'll be drinking or whatever you can do to offset the pain.
Maybe you'll mix one day and not wake up.
Think it can't happen? It does all the time.
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I didn't make any appointments yet as I would have to take care of health insurance first, but I did talk to the place this morning. It's more involved than just going there and getting a prescription for suboxone. There are regular drug screens to make sure you are not using, blood work, and they mandate you see a counselor. Honestly in the back of my mind I'm saying I rather just do this on my own then go through this big ordeal of making appointments, setting up an appointment with a counselor, etc.
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