Tomorrow is 90! 90! 90!
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Tomorrow is 90! 90! 90!
Hi, all you fabulous people--
Tomorrow is ninety days, and I'm happy to report you are all correct... it really does get better every day. Even the things that are super-hard-- the depression and anxiety, mostly--are nothing compared to the shame and guilt of hangovers, blackouts, lying and shaking.
Every day I feel more and more like I'm getting through the woods. I even have had some glimpses of real, genuine, simple happy.
Other things I'm sure of as I look at 90 days:
1. Yep, I was an alcoholic. Seeing my behaviors and being honest about them leave no doubt.
2. I can't ever drink again. When I think about it, and play the tape through, I know even one sip would lead to mind-blitzing drinking. I simply can't enjoy just one. Other people, yes. Me--? No.
3. The community of the recovering is a powerful and wonderful one. I've spent so much time here on SR, and have also read piles of books about recovery. It is so helpful to be reminded, again and again, that I'm not alone.
4. I can do this. I really, really can. All those years I thought I couldn't do it? I was wrong. I just couldn't do it YET.
5. Root beer is DELICIOUS. It's my new favorite drink--and such a treat when out to dinner.
Thanks again, everyone. You are top on my gratitude list.
Tomorrow is ninety days, and I'm happy to report you are all correct... it really does get better every day. Even the things that are super-hard-- the depression and anxiety, mostly--are nothing compared to the shame and guilt of hangovers, blackouts, lying and shaking.
Every day I feel more and more like I'm getting through the woods. I even have had some glimpses of real, genuine, simple happy.
Other things I'm sure of as I look at 90 days:
1. Yep, I was an alcoholic. Seeing my behaviors and being honest about them leave no doubt.
2. I can't ever drink again. When I think about it, and play the tape through, I know even one sip would lead to mind-blitzing drinking. I simply can't enjoy just one. Other people, yes. Me--? No.
3. The community of the recovering is a powerful and wonderful one. I've spent so much time here on SR, and have also read piles of books about recovery. It is so helpful to be reminded, again and again, that I'm not alone.
4. I can do this. I really, really can. All those years I thought I couldn't do it? I was wrong. I just couldn't do it YET.
5. Root beer is DELICIOUS. It's my new favorite drink--and such a treat when out to dinner.
Thanks again, everyone. You are top on my gratitude list.
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90 - how fabulous is that!? Very proud of you, FMN. 
I love your positive post - you make some great points. I remember feeling so much better at 90 days. Much calmer and more confident. Glad you are here with us.
I love your positive post - you make some great points. I remember feeling so much better at 90 days. Much calmer and more confident. Glad you are here with us.
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Originally Posted by FindingMyNext 
5. Root beer is DELICIOUS. It's my new favorite drink--and such a treat when out to dinner.
Great job! You are focused and accept that you can never drink again, I wish you continued success.
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