Sometimes I just shake my head.....
Sometimes I just shake my head.....
I was in my head the whole day. I could have done a ton of stuff, but instead I slept until 2pm because I started obsessing about my health the night before.
I did everything wrong today. I shut myself in, didn't talk to any one and just let myself obsess.
So, I had 4 really good anxiety attacks and just sat in my studio where I am now at 2:00 AM. Head in my hands until I decided to write this.
The only thing I did right was not drink. This is how I feel..
that's all. thanks for listening...I just needed to vent my stupid decisions today.
I did everything wrong today. I shut myself in, didn't talk to any one and just let myself obsess.
So, I had 4 really good anxiety attacks and just sat in my studio where I am now at 2:00 AM. Head in my hands until I decided to write this.
The only thing I did right was not drink. This is how I feel..
that's all. thanks for listening...I just needed to vent my stupid decisions today.
Not true, you did at least two other things right (probably more).
1.)you reached out, by posting here.
2.) you recognized behavior patterns.
Progress my man, not perfection. Cut yourself some slack.
It is wise to keep an eye on regression, but don't forget to acknowledge progression. :~)
1.)you reached out, by posting here.
2.) you recognized behavior patterns.
Progress my man, not perfection. Cut yourself some slack.
It is wise to keep an eye on regression, but don't forget to acknowledge progression. :~)
The first thing is my daughter is starting 6th grade in a week. I always worry about taking her to school and picking her up. What if something happens to me during the day? etc..
I want to move...nobody else does or cares about it.
I guess those are the big things.
Being the father of a teenage daughter is challenging enough...she's strong willed and a little rebellious. My wife says if i go into over protection mode, it'll make things worse. This is a balancing act I fear I'm not ready for.
Every time I talk to my dr. about going back on anti anxiety meds, she's never opposed it, but rather thinks my anxiety is situational. So in one breath she's saying OK, but maybe you don't really need it if the stressor is dealt with.
So basically she's saying...gut up dude...this is normal anxiety. It seems like she's really wanting me to learn how to live life on life's terms.
I don't much like that right now. I feel like if i pushed the subject, she'd put me back on them, but what if she's right?
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