Well....here we go.
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Well....here we go.
Well, after 15 months of sobriety my liver is back to being 100% normal. My heart and kidneys are also back to normal, BP is solid , all i gotta do is lose a bit of weight.
Still no more diabetes.
Dr says my thyroid is a hair under active, but she said that has nothing to do with my drinking past. It being so mildly elevated, she was gonna get another reading in a month to see if there's even any reason to treat it.
Gonna go back to therapy. I've still got some s#it to work out. I feel like my ptsd is hitting me back again.
I drank every day for over 20 years...many times more than a liter of the hard stuff and whatever pills i could get my hands on. At my worst, i was heavily addicted to benzos and was drinking almost a half a gallon a day. I've had brief periods of sobriety. nothing lasting this long.
This last bender almost killed me.
I'm only here by the grace of God. If there's one thing I've learned this go around is not to waste time. I'm going to continue to address my issues and start to move on from my past. If i have one foot in yesterday. I can't live in today no matter how hard I try.
Time to get busy.
Still no more diabetes.
Dr says my thyroid is a hair under active, but she said that has nothing to do with my drinking past. It being so mildly elevated, she was gonna get another reading in a month to see if there's even any reason to treat it.
Gonna go back to therapy. I've still got some s#it to work out. I feel like my ptsd is hitting me back again.
I drank every day for over 20 years...many times more than a liter of the hard stuff and whatever pills i could get my hands on. At my worst, i was heavily addicted to benzos and was drinking almost a half a gallon a day. I've had brief periods of sobriety. nothing lasting this long.
This last bender almost killed me.
I'm only here by the grace of God. If there's one thing I've learned this go around is not to waste time. I'm going to continue to address my issues and start to move on from my past. If i have one foot in yesterday. I can't live in today no matter how hard I try.
Time to get busy.
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Originally Posted by BullDog777 
Well, after 15 months of sobriety my liver is back to being 100% normal. My heart and kidneys are also back to normal, BP is solid , all i gotta do is lose a bit of weight.
Still no more diabetes.
Still no more diabetes.
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Originally Posted by BullDog777
I'm only here by the grace of God. If there's one thing I've learned this go around is not to waste time. I'm going to continue to address my issues and start to move on from my past. If i have one foot in yesterday. I can't live in today no matter how hard I try.
Time to get busy.
Time to get busy.
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thanks for the kind words. I was terrified to go through this but glad I nutted up and did it in spite of the fear.
my life is 1000% better than it was 15 months ago.
One of my only memories from being in the hospital was just a flash where I told the dr that there was no way that some one like me could walk away without some permanent damage. An that I was carrying that guilt around for letting it get the best of me. That I felt so hopeless. Man...that is the worst feeling in the world.
None of this has been easy. However, the alternative just cannot be allowed to live here anymore.
my life is 1000% better than it was 15 months ago.
One of my only memories from being in the hospital was just a flash where I told the dr that there was no way that some one like me could walk away without some permanent damage. An that I was carrying that guilt around for letting it get the best of me. That I felt so hopeless. Man...that is the worst feeling in the world.
None of this has been easy. However, the alternative just cannot be allowed to live here anymore.
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I really appreciate you all. You people have gotten me through my worst and have always been so supportive.
It's hard for me to put into words the gratitude i have for this place and you people.
It's hard for me to put into words the gratitude i have for this place and you people.
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