So much for that Pink Cloud
 

I'm grateful for the roughly 36 hours that I had it. Yesterday I went to a 9 AM MTG., happy. At 11 AMgot some crap news (too long, but heavy, serious stuff) It would have ordinarily sent me back out to the liquor store.
I hit a second meeting at Noon. Someone asked how I was...I said "******". He said "you're in the right place". When the Chair asked if anyone was sitting on a drink, the guy who asked how I was earlier turned back to look at me. I was upset, but was not sitting on a drink. That certainly was not going to help.
I hit another meeting last evening at 5:30. Plenty of hours spent in my head. Resentment building. Someone shared that his brother had passed that morning. From complications of alcoholism. Suddenly my perspective changed. My problems did not disappear, but nobody died. If I had drank I would have missed that meeting and I definitely would have zip, zero, zilch clarity.
So I'm back to reality, no more pink cloud...I'm content to be sober and clear. Today. And really, really, really proud that I didn't run out the minute things got tough.
That is HUGE for me!
Be well all!
J

Well done, Jules.

I am proud of you, too.

Btw, sober, clear and content are pretty darn good and sound rather pink to me. :)

I'm proud of you too!! Keep going to meetings and hang out with us here!! Wishing you the best!

SoberLeigh,
You know what? They do don't they?
Excellent points. I'll take it! Thanks
J

:)

Thanks Dave!
This is the best effort I have ever made and it just feels right, good, sound.
Life will happen. Problems arise. I'm realizing I need not make them worse by picking up.
LOVE my meetings!! LOVE it here!!
About time I worked a program properly and heeded suggestions.
Was running out of time.
Thanks again,
J

I'm so happy for you! You made my day!! Stop by the 12 Step Support group when you have time and say hello. Big fellowship with hundreds of years of sobriety!

Good for you Jules. I NEVER had a pink cloud. Every day has been a fight- not with booze- but all the crap that it caused, and far -FAR more importantly all the reasons I drank. Yep - relity. But I know what drinking offers- hell and death. Keep posting- and yes- be proud. Keep posting. A good share, thanks.

Well done Jules :You_Rock_

Wonderful congratulations ❤❤❤

A huge part of recovery is learning to deal with life's ups and downs. During my active addiction, I was really only worried about getting to my next drunk.

I would personally like to punch the ******* that turned around to stare at you as if to call you out publicly.

That is all. Also, well done on not drinking. Those days when your brain just won't shut up about how "great" "one drink" would feel are rough. Because one drink feels like ****. 15 drinks is where it's at (sarcasm... but seriously, that's how it works for me).

I've actually had an "old timer" nudge me in a meeting to share what I had shared with her in the "meeting before the meeting'
Pissed me off. I passed.
The rooms are great, but some of the people? Not as much.

Too good Jules. :tyou

Great job- thanks for sharing.

Good post Jules. Thank you.

Again, thank you all!
Warm and fuzzies,
J