Drinking problem or just college living?
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Location: Cleveland
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I drank just like that in college - not everyday, but always to intoxication when tried. I had depression and anxiety after a night of drinking as well. In my case, the drinking progressed after college to include daily drinking. I continued this for a bout 15 years before getting help.
Looking back, the signs were all there during my college years: drinking to intoxication every time, not being able to stop once started, having an almost euphoric excitement when drinking was being planned, blacking out, unexplained injuries, doing things that were way out of character or that I later regretted, etc. I agree with those that see a physiological component to alcoholism as I believe my reaction to booze is abnormal. I surrounded myself with heavy drinkers so as to not stand out. But I even had a reputation among them as someone who always got drunk.
I can say that I wish I would have taken action back then. But the fact of the matter is I was immature and I didn't want to. I thought I enjoyed drinking, thought it made me who I was, it took care of my social fears, etc. That said, the consequences since then have been significant and I would have liked to have not experienced them all. But they are what got me to where I am today, so I am generally grateful.
I give you credit for exploring this in your mind. I suggest a trusted doctor and/or counselor for you to get a professional opinion. In the meantime, I wish you well.
Looking back, the signs were all there during my college years: drinking to intoxication every time, not being able to stop once started, having an almost euphoric excitement when drinking was being planned, blacking out, unexplained injuries, doing things that were way out of character or that I later regretted, etc. I agree with those that see a physiological component to alcoholism as I believe my reaction to booze is abnormal. I surrounded myself with heavy drinkers so as to not stand out. But I even had a reputation among them as someone who always got drunk.
I can say that I wish I would have taken action back then. But the fact of the matter is I was immature and I didn't want to. I thought I enjoyed drinking, thought it made me who I was, it took care of my social fears, etc. That said, the consequences since then have been significant and I would have liked to have not experienced them all. But they are what got me to where I am today, so I am generally grateful.
I give you credit for exploring this in your mind. I suggest a trusted doctor and/or counselor for you to get a professional opinion. In the meantime, I wish you well.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Cleveland
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I drank like you in college. I believer I had a physiologic reaction to booze that was abnormal and I wished I would have heeded the warning signs back then. Some of us are just not designed to handle alcohol. I am one and I knew it all along. In my case, beginning to work with a professional to address mental health issues began to open my eyes to the possibilities of life without alcohol. My opinion is that only a pro can properly assess you from the outside.
I wish you well. Hey, you're at least exploring this thing about yourself. If you decide that the demon does live in your head, just know that are so many of us out here of all shapes, sizes, beliefs and personalities. You can find your spot.
I wish you well. Hey, you're at least exploring this thing about yourself. If you decide that the demon does live in your head, just know that are so many of us out here of all shapes, sizes, beliefs and personalities. You can find your spot.
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