IMHomerSimpson

It seems as if my life is testing my willpower to give up my bad habits since I stopped 4 days ago.Ifirst my high liver counts,then my chest x-ray because of real bad 2 month cough,now I had to get MRI on my head today because of my severe headaches.Im scared ******** now.I have to wait until Mon.or Tues. to hear the results of the MRI which is gonna really screw my thinking up for the next couple of days.When a specialist sends you for an mri of your head most people like me automatically think brain tumor,anuerysm or some other bad thing.Im starting to think I picked the WRONG time to give up smoking and drinking,my 2 crutches.Im not gonna do it but holy crap,whats next? Oh,whats next is a cardiac stress test ordered by this same doctor,I think she either wants me to drink and smoke(unlikely) or I found a Dr. who really,truly gives a $hit.Also I have a bad head cold right now to compound my disastrous moment of sobriety.Wish you were me?

Anna

What's next Homer is learning how to live through the times when you're scared to death without the crutch of alcohol. And, you know it is a truly liberating feeling when you do it. You can fly!

Hang on and I'm sure you'll be fine. Good luck with the test results.

Love, Anna

degadar

Hi Homer,
It does sound as though life is testing your willpower. I think life does test us every day. There's always a choice to make, and every day a different path presents itself.

Like all competition sports - they're most enjoyable when you're winning. You've not lost for days!

Come on life... if you think you're hard enough. My money is on Homer.

Deg.

TorontoGuy28

I can't imagine how anxious you must be about the results.. Anxiety was/is a trigger to relapse for me, but I learned to identify it and deal with it without hitting the booze. Don't drink, it will only make things worse.. Hang in there man, and I am hoping all will turn out ok.. My 2 cents - doctors like to cover their asses and would run tests just to make sure.. I wouldn't worry too much about it.. Either way, let us know how things turn out...

Once a now ex-girlfriend of mine asked me to get tested for HIV since she was a new partner... Man oh man, that was the longest week of my life for the results.. I knew I had nothing to worry about, but of course the doctor said I have to come in to get the results.. The looooooongest 5 minute walk of my life.. All was well, but that was a stressful time..

Cindi

When I was in the Hospital the Dr said I had the 3rd highest blood alcohol level he had ever seen. I came pretty close to Death as my Kidneys were going into failure.

But I'm here alive and breathing. Struggling, yes, but if I survived...

Of course we have done damage to our Health-that's a given (this coming from a Medical Asst who should have known better) but it can be repaired or controlled with medication and taking care of yourself.

You'll be OK. My Prayers & Thoughts are with you.

Music

Homer, I'm just glad you're around to experience this little bit of discomfort. Your body is probably just reacting to all the sudden changes. I'm sure you'll be fine, at least I'm praying you are.
I'd just remind you that you don't have to do all this by yourself. Other AAs have gone through what you're going through and can help talk you through it. AA is a WE program and I found it comforting to know I didn't have to be alone any more. In the beginning, my biggest problem was doing what people suggested. I still thought I knew it all and had all the answers. Of course, after trying a few things that were suggested to me and finding that these things helped, it became easier to trust what others told me.
Four days is great. Stick with it.

IMHomerSimpson

Hey guys,Im not obsessing too much on my health issues today,so far.Ive been getting urges to smoke,I have a nicotine patch on which helps.I also have been getting these thoughts of how good it would feel to just go buy a six-pack and pack of cigs and sit back and get loopy even though I know I would not get the "nice" feeling my mind is telling me it would be.It would be more of a uncomfortable,guilt-ridden step backwards.I keep reminding myself I can control my urges,that they are temporary,and I will absolutely hate myself tomorrow if I relapse,again.Its day 5,not a milestone,but a good beginning.Its been 20 years since I went this long without smokes.I will make it through this.

Chy

It is a milestone Homer because now you want it! I'm very happy for you and pray you have good results on the test. Keep remembering that little demon will be continuously testing you and he'll begin to go away the stronger you get.

TorontoGuy28

Hey Homer.. Stay strong man, things get easier as time goes on.. I am on day 9 today and to be honest, don't even think about booze... When thought would come in in the first 3 days , I would just remind myself of the results if I pick up that drink.. Shakes, anxiety, panic, paranoia, stress, guilt, shame the next day.. NOT WORTH IT.. Booze does nothing but mask our real feelings, temporarily of course....