The chase
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The chase
Another thread made me think of this. It's like I spent years and years of my life chasing something with drink. What was I chasing?
- chasing away demons
- sex
- love
- security
- acceptance from others
- coolness
- notariety
- freedom
- chasing away the past
- chasing past highs
- chasing away past lows
- chasing away worry
- chasing away anger and resentment
Just to name a few. I chased or chased away all these with alcohol. Oh and I took my shots with a chaser, but I digress.
What did you chase?
- chasing away demons
- sex
- love
- security
- acceptance from others
- coolness
- notariety
- freedom
- chasing away the past
- chasing past highs
- chasing away past lows
- chasing away worry
- chasing away anger and resentment
Just to name a few. I chased or chased away all these with alcohol. Oh and I took my shots with a chaser, but I digress.
What did you chase?
In sobriety, or maybe life in general, we seem to chase the same sorts of things. Advancement, a possession, a qualification, an achievement, perhaps in the hope that whenever I get what it is I am striving for, I will be complete. But alas, no matter how well it went, at the end of the day, I was still me. It changed nothing.
Something in the big book about worship of other things......
Something in the big book about worship of other things......
I just wanted to get drunk for the most part because I liked how it felt initially. I also find that it's not all that productive to over-analyze WHY I drank, because it really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. What's more important to me is keeping grounded in the concept that I cannot drink anymore. And that it's OK that I can't/don't drink anymore.
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I just wanted to get drunk for the most part because I liked how it felt initially. I also find that it's not all that productive to over-analyze WHY I drank, because it really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. What's more important to me is keeping grounded in the concept that I cannot drink anymore. And that it's OK that I can't/don't drink anymore.
Unless the topic is not suitable for the message board, then that's a whole other issue entirely.
I find it productive to analyze why I drank. And to discuss it. Simply chalking it up and saying it doesn't matter, I simply don't drink anymore is analogous to dropping a grenade down a drainpipe, plugging it, and expecting it not to explode. JMO
Unless the topic is not suitable for the message board, then that's a whole other issue entirely.
Unless the topic is not suitable for the message board, then that's a whole other issue entirely.
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Happy, sad or bored I drank. It rarely mattered how things were going I drank regardless.
Ok. but why?
Hereditary? Allergy? Weak-willed or just plain f-up?
In the end it doesn't matter. I'll go with all of the above.
What's important is I realize it is best I don't pick up that first drink.
Ok. but why?
Hereditary? Allergy? Weak-willed or just plain f-up?
In the end it doesn't matter. I'll go with all of the above.
What's important is I realize it is best I don't pick up that first drink.
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What matters now is that I seek (note- not chase, because it comes if I am willing to live in acceptance and surrender) peace. Joy. Honest living. Humility. Love of others. That sort of stuff.
The bad, the junk, the shameful...those things were part of a past life.
Onward.
The bad, the junk, the shameful...those things were part of a past life.
Onward.
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