Relapse...and finding my way back
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Thank you...Done4Today...I will post tomorrow...on my Day 1. I know that I seem like a coward for drinking wine to come down. I hope to get my strength and courage back! I help people for a living, it is high time that I help myself...Thank you again, for not judging.
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What are you doing to help make it easier to stay sober after a few days, which you say you can do? Meetings, maybe, of any flavor? Have you considered an outpatient medical treatment program where you can learn more about tools to stay away for good? Read/post here more often? In my experience, we have to do things to stay sober, after we've beat it for a couple days and start to feel better following our most recent detox/withdrawal episode. Wishes aren't usually enough, not once we've crossed the line. 
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JeffreyAK,
I know that I need a new plan, I seem to drink when I have to deal with the intense pressures of life. Like I said, I can go day's without drinking, then on day 4 or 5, I say"Fu** it". I drink and binder for the next few days...until I am here. But yet, I seem to be able to get sober fore months...8 months being the longest, then I am back to "Fu** it". This has been the pattern for 20 years..
Why can't I see the benefits of long-term sobriety??
I know that I need a new plan, I seem to drink when I have to deal with the intense pressures of life. Like I said, I can go day's without drinking, then on day 4 or 5, I say"Fu** it". I drink and binder for the next few days...until I am here. But yet, I seem to be able to get sober fore months...8 months being the longest, then I am back to "Fu** it". This has been the pattern for 20 years..
Why can't I see the benefits of long-term sobriety??
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I will consume the last 6oz of wine before bed, and take a Xanix. This seems like a good, at home detox plan.
Good plan if you like playing Russian Roulette. Meds and alcohol never mix. Anyone remember Karen Ann Quinlan ? Ended up in a coma for YEARS and never came out of it. Please rethink what you are doing. This is NOT judging you in any way. Just major concern.
Good plan if you like playing Russian Roulette. Meds and alcohol never mix. Anyone remember Karen Ann Quinlan ? Ended up in a coma for YEARS and never came out of it. Please rethink what you are doing. This is NOT judging you in any way. Just major concern.
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Originally Posted by wildflower70 
I am ashamed to post this, as I was doing so well in recovery. I had a serious relapse in November, and can't seem to find my way back. I am reaching out for help, hopefully without judgement.
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MsCooter,
I don't know how else to stop the shakes, diarrhea, hot flashes, ect... I need to do this at home, as I have way to much to loose if I admit the problem and seek help.
Isn't that a major problem in this country? Your damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
Please support me guys...I will seek more tools to help me!!
I don't know how else to stop the shakes, diarrhea, hot flashes, ect... I need to do this at home, as I have way to much to loose if I admit the problem and seek help.
Isn't that a major problem in this country? Your damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
Please support me guys...I will seek more tools to help me!!
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Please don't be afraid to seek help. When I was drinking my thinking was so distorted and warped that I could not determine what was true and what was false. Can you find a meeting schedule? AA helped me when I was alone and afraid. I relapsed after nine months twice and I just had to get back up and believe in myself. You deserve to feel calm, safe, and happy.
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kittycat3,
I would surely rather die than expose my dirty laundry...Sounds vein or cowardly?...Maybe.
I refuse to go down like this. My friend is watching me, and I will no doubt self medicate tonight.
I see the light of a new day....tomorrow will be the real test.
Thank you all for your kind and loving support, I hope that one day I can again share strength and wisdom with others.
Many blessings!
I would surely rather die than expose my dirty laundry...Sounds vein or cowardly?...Maybe.
I refuse to go down like this. My friend is watching me, and I will no doubt self medicate tonight.
I see the light of a new day....tomorrow will be the real test.
Thank you all for your kind and loving support, I hope that one day I can again share strength and wisdom with others.
Many blessings!
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Originally Posted by MsCooterBrown
Look at my Join date...I have had a few and am back again...3/6/17 I made a firm commitment to myself that this is IT. Join me...we can do this together. I think for me...I have to think of alcohol as poison. I focus on what it does to destroy both physical and mental sides. I think the first 3 days are brutal if you have been drinking daily...was for me. I also found that if I eat it fends off cravings to drink. So I do like maybe six small meals a day. Even if it is fruit. Please don't give up. We can beat this.
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If you've had seizures before I would highly suggest going to a medical center to detox. It's too high of a risk and your medical records are protected by HIPAA laws. At least you have a friend there to call 911 if you do need EMS.
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You can do this!! I had several relapses before finally managing to get sobriety to stick this past time.
Tonight it really sounds like a trip to the ER is needed. There is nothing to be ashamed of, you are reaching out for help and that is brave. They can get you through those first days of withdrawals safely, and then help you come up with a plan.
Read, post, and reach out. You can do this!!! So glad you are here today.
Tonight it really sounds like a trip to the ER is needed. There is nothing to be ashamed of, you are reaching out for help and that is brave. They can get you through those first days of withdrawals safely, and then help you come up with a plan.
Read, post, and reach out. You can do this!!! So glad you are here today.
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Hi wildflower - welcome back 
if you're worried about withdrawal please do see a Dr - it really is the safest way.
I'm really big on recovery plans...
I think it's vital to have some idea of how to deal with the various traps, triggers and temptations nearly everyone faces when they're trying to get sober
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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if you're worried about withdrawal please do see a Dr - it really is the safest way.
I'm really big on recovery plans...
I think it's vital to have some idea of how to deal with the various traps, triggers and temptations nearly everyone faces when they're trying to get sober
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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