This is how pathetic we are (were)
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This is how pathetic we are (were)
I'm off work today to bum around the house a bit. I woke up around 5am... and instinctively wondered if it was too early to add some whiskey to my coffee. For realz? 
My days of being half-in-the-bag by 10am are behind me.
This is how pathetic we are.
My days of being half-in-the-bag by 10am are behind me.This is how pathetic we are.
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Originally Posted by tomsteve 
I hope you don't have whiskey in the house,steve.
ETA: I just spent too much on bike parts and stuff for the garden to afford anything else!
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What gets to me is the drinking I see in movies and TV. I sometimes feel like drinking when I see the characters enjoying an alcoholic beverage.
I was at an AA meeting yesterday and the lead said he had to cancel his subscription to the New Yorker Magazine for 10 years because of the attractive alcohol advertisements. It was a trigger.
I was at an AA meeting yesterday and the lead said he had to cancel his subscription to the New Yorker Magazine for 10 years because of the attractive alcohol advertisements. It was a trigger.
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I think it's important to remember where we came from and why we are here - but at the same time obsessing about the past or shaming/blaming can be counter-productive too. I sense you have a need to keep dredging up the past Steve...perhaps you can start trying to focus on now and the good things you are doing a bit more? The concept of Mindfulness really comes into play at times like this.
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Scott, I find myself doing this occasionally. I think about how much time I wasted and what I did to myself. The truth is there is nothing I can do about that, but I can have a say so on how things go from here on out.
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yeah those kinds of thoughts do become less and less often but at almost 6 years sober now and then i get stupid ideas like that.
as far as seeing drining and such on tv and movies and all forget that can be like alcoholic porn. Like i saw recently a scene form leavng las vegas where nicolous cage was stocking up on booze in the store i had ot shut that off it really had me going.
as far as seeing drining and such on tv and movies and all forget that can be like alcoholic porn. Like i saw recently a scene form leavng las vegas where nicolous cage was stocking up on booze in the store i had ot shut that off it really had me going.
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I was thinking just yesterday how it wasn't unusual to wake up and get a beer after I had my coffee on a Saturday morning. And more than one guy here was talking about having a beer in the shower in the past. Thank God I don't think like that anymore. It never even crosses my mind now at a year sober.
We are not pathetic. We are human. Alcohol is a serious drug, tobacco too, they are hard to give up, they are addictions. It isn't weak or pathetic at all to face those demons. It is very brave I think Steve.
We are not pathetic. We are human. Alcohol is a serious drug, tobacco too, they are hard to give up, they are addictions. It isn't weak or pathetic at all to face those demons. It is very brave I think Steve.
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I laughed at myself yesterday, I was mildly upset that my state may now sell alcohol on Sundays. Wait.. what do I care? Hahaha. It's not pathetic it just takes time to let go of those thinking patterns. Shower beers, yep I did that, was I sick!
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I have a tool for that, that I learned in therapy. Play it through in your head.
From start to finish...not just the one part you miss, but the whole f'ing mess that will happen.
I used to love to drop the kids off to school and start the day on a case of beer and be almost done with it by noon. By then I was asking my neighbor to take me to the abc store to get a gallon of liquor and by 3pm i was so tore up i could barely hold it together.
My neighbor would drive me to go pick up the kids and hang out in the garage with me until 4pm. Then i'd slam down a meal and brush my teeth and ultimately puke most of it up and repeat the process until my wife got home at 5. She would come in the door with the regular disappointment written all over her face and keep it together and make dinner for the 3 of us.
I'd say a few words and wander back to the man cave where, i'd- most nights, forget dinner and find myself passed out in my chair at 2am shaking, starving and wondering what had happened all day long.Then i'd turn on the tv and drink until i pass out and repeat process the next day...thinking...i don't have much time left.
pathetic might be a mild understatement. I'm really glad you didn't drink.
From start to finish...not just the one part you miss, but the whole f'ing mess that will happen.
I used to love to drop the kids off to school and start the day on a case of beer and be almost done with it by noon. By then I was asking my neighbor to take me to the abc store to get a gallon of liquor and by 3pm i was so tore up i could barely hold it together.
My neighbor would drive me to go pick up the kids and hang out in the garage with me until 4pm. Then i'd slam down a meal and brush my teeth and ultimately puke most of it up and repeat the process until my wife got home at 5. She would come in the door with the regular disappointment written all over her face and keep it together and make dinner for the 3 of us.
I'd say a few words and wander back to the man cave where, i'd- most nights, forget dinner and find myself passed out in my chair at 2am shaking, starving and wondering what had happened all day long.Then i'd turn on the tv and drink until i pass out and repeat process the next day...thinking...i don't have much time left.
pathetic might be a mild understatement. I'm really glad you didn't drink.
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Originally Posted by Forward12 View Post
No hate, but from your posts, it sounds like you're still drinking.
and if he is so what? I still posted on this Forum after I relapsed in 2013.
Their is a guy that I see at many AA meeting that is still drinking and sometimes comes to the meetings drunk...but he is trying to stop and understand the program.
Trying is all that we can do.
No hate, but from your posts, it sounds like you're still drinking.
Originally Posted by steve-in-kville
Wow. Anything else??
and if he is so what? I still posted on this Forum after I relapsed in 2013.
Their is a guy that I see at many AA meeting that is still drinking and sometimes comes to the meetings drunk...but he is trying to stop and understand the program.
Trying is all that we can do.
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