Mountainmanbob

When Drinking I Liked To ??

Towards the end of my drinking days
I liked to escape into a drunken dream world of sleep.

Usually after having a few very strong drinks in the morning
and taking a small handful of prescription pills
I would just sleep a good part of my day away.

Wake up eventually and just have one desire -- to do it yet again.

As I look back I see -- that is no life to lead.

M-Bob

2muchpain

get numb, play on the computer while watching TV, forget about everything else, then eventually go to sleep. Next day, go to the liquor store, go home and start over again. John

Starflyer

I usually would like to write. Alcohol, for some reason or another, really opened up my thoughts. I would sit in front of the computer writing on different things or a paper for school. If I didn't feel like doing any of that then I would write messages to friends or family.

At some point all of the writing would become scatterbrained and useless. One (of many) problem I faced when putting the bottle down was trying to write again without the booze to lift my brain fog.

Doug39

I never really looked forward to drinking or thought about it much.

Drinking was just part of my daily routine for 27 years.

On weekend days I usually started drinking in the early afternoon and drank until I had enough. On weekdays I drank after work until I had enough, ate and went to bed. Pretty boring really. All I did was spend a lot of money, damage my body and waste a lot of time.

Deleteda

I would watch movies, ones I'd usually seen and liked many many times before, waste of time!

Peace X

shortstop81

When I drank I liked to do chores and feel 'productive'. That would usually only last the first few drinks in, before things would go downhill.

BullDog777

i can't think of a single thing.

it sucked. all of it, every minute of this last 4 year bender.

none of it made me feel good. i could never get drunk enough and i was always in a constant state of withdrawal.

It was a tidal wave of s#it.

thank God it's over.

NatVT

Be in denial and lie about liking to get wasted every night. I feel like crap right now, but I'm looking forward to getting better every day.

FBL

When drinking I liked to...drink and then drink some more.

ohwonder

in the beginning, i drank to feel productive, too. it made really monotonous things a bit more pleasing. i always thought it made me a better writer, too.

however, it turned into opening a bottle of wine (and usually downing two) to then go off to bed immediately after putting my kids to sleep. i would just keep drinking until i was too tired or sick to keep drinking and then fall asleep. such a waste.

Loekken

Listen to music mostly and isolate. And plan ahead drinking.

ScottFromWI

Everything an nothing all at the same time. With the exception of when I went to work ( and I still am not sure how I made those 8 hours ), if I was awake I was drinking. Basically I just drank all day and all night every day.

RaiseAnchor

Pretty much the same. I dismantled and put away my gaming computer when I began to abstain. At that time, when I looked back I was never on it without a beer nearby. I had to create new, sober situations.

Mountainmanbob

I liked to drive around drunk and put people's lives in danger.
How embarrassing today to realize that.

M-Bob

NatVT

M-Bob,

We can only be so grateful that we didn't harm anyone. I have been guilty of the same. I think of some of the situations I put myself and loved ones in and it makes me so ill.

The power of self forgiveness is a great thing.

Timebuster

I would drink all day come to sober recovery and laugh at you fools LOL until eventually the last laugh was on me when I joined sober recovery in 2004 and now I got 12 years clean and sober under my belt LOL

Hugs and prayers
TB

Mountainmanbob

You are one of the fortunate ones my friend and wish that I could say that too but, back in 1999 I had a head-on collision which was my fault due to drinking and two people got hurt really badly. I stayed sober for close to 3 years and then went back to drinking. Then in 2007 I crashed a motorhome through the front of a business with people inside I do thank God that no one got hurt that time. Yes, today I do think I have learned my lesson.

I still today pray that those two made a full recovery although I doubt it.

Counting our blessings.

M-Bob

aasharon90

Me, I like preparing for my next get
away, leave my little family, head out
to the local club, stopping at a church
parking lot on the way to slip into my
high heels, lip stick, to listen to music
and drink and dance with Santa Claus,
dance the night away to escape my
unhappiness, discontent, restlessness.

Wash, repeat and do all over again.

Thank God I choose not to be dishonest,
unfaithful and drunk anymore.

When I became completely honest
in all my affairs then a door opened
to a life in recovery filled with so many
gifts that are far more worth it than
any day drunk and all that came with
that kind of life.

BrendaChenowyth

I did a lot of the same thing over and over and over. I got fixated on songs or tv show episodes or movies or mindless games.

Nothing new, productive or healthy.

EddyS

I used to do the same Brenda. Same alcoholic drinks, listened to the same songs, movies, videos, etc. They would all bring out the emotional side of me, and I'd usually end up in the same drunken, sobbing mess. I never want to go back to that again!