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Old 11-07-2016, 09:50 PM
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Why can't I get it together

This weekend decided to just not care but at what prive! I feel depressed and disgusted with myself! I had no intentions of drinking but instead of sticking to no. I drank and drove no one to blamebut myself. I was lucky I got pulled over but they let me go as long as someone came for me with in minutes.
I a binge drinker and don't even think about alcohol during the week nor have alcohol in my home. I cleary gave issues. I didn't get a dui but it feels like I did. The self loathing sets in. I keep thinking I could of hurt someone or taken someones life. I am so upset and can't keep doing this!

Help I am ******* drowning!😔
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Old 11-07-2016, 10:11 PM
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Welcome, Justme!

It sounds like you were very lucky. I hope you take advantage of that, and this is the beginning of a permanent recovery.
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Old 11-07-2016, 10:36 PM
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I know I am very lucky I need to do just that... permanent recovery but I feel like a loser and can't stop thinking of what could have happened.
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Old 11-07-2016, 10:42 PM
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Remember that anxiety is a symptom of alcohol withdrawal, so as you get further away from drinking these feelings will subside.

Here's a couple good threads to join:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6193068

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6201117
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Well you definitely got VERY lucky. Yes lucky that you didn't hurt yourself or someone else, but also because you escaped the obvious legal consequence. Maybe look at this as a wake up call from a power greater than yourself. I also escaped some very sticky situations but that doesn't continue, believe me.

So I tend to awfulize situations. Look at the what ifs, the past, the OMG yikes etc. I try now to look at what IS. Stick to the facts, then take action...not wallow. Focus on what I can control (myself, my choices, my actions, my reactions) and let go of what I can't. And most importantly be grateful that I'm being given a chance to become a better person. Mistakes aren't so bad if I learn from them and change.
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Old 11-08-2016, 06:41 AM
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Good morning- glad you posted.

What's your plan for today? Just today. Sounds like a great time for an AA meeting, and certainly for finding everything possible to do except drink.

You can quit- there are IRL programs (I am a big AA-er and others around here can also vouch for their success with programs like SMART and AVRT, especially on the other side of the pond) and things like the Class of November under SR's Newcomer's Daily Support Threads, and plenty more around here.

Good luck- hope to see you around.
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Old 11-08-2016, 07:45 AM
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I know I am very lucky I need to do just that... permanent recovery but I feel like a loser and can't stop thinking of what could have happened.
We've all done things that we regret when we were drinking JustMe, including drunk driving. I won't downplay the consequences you could have suffered, or those around you when you did it - but it is in the past. Worrying about what you "could" have done or what "could"have happened won't help you get sober - which is what you need to focus on 100%. Whether you are a binge drinker or a daily drinker ( or a daily binge drinker! ) the first step is admitting/accepting the problem. If you are ready to to that there are quite a few programs/plans you can follow to make sober living a permanent part of your life. But it is work and you must follow through on it each and every day.
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Old 11-08-2016, 08:47 AM
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I know I am very lucky I need to do just that... permanent recovery but I feel like a loser and can't stop thinking of what could have happened.
You were extremely fortunate on several counts, but this absolutely must be a wake up call. The odds of getting such a huge break again are rather slim, and it is likely that the consequences will be steep if there is ever another similar incident.

You obviously cannot predict the outcome once you begin to drink, so do do not allow this to continue. Your guilt is quite relevant, in that your conscience is actually telling you that this is very wrong for you, and to do the obvious. It is not telling you to feel sorry for yourself in order to justify continued drinking.

That 'but', and everything after it, on the other hand, is your addiction talking, trying to use your guilty conscience against you. Everything before the 'but' is you -- the real you -- so you already know what you need to do here.

That said, what is your plan regarding this problem?
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Old 11-08-2016, 09:29 AM
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Remember that anxiety is a symptom of alcohol withdrawal, so as you get further away from drinking these feelings will subside.

Here's a couple good threads to join:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6193068

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6201117
ColdFusion offered links to some great threads; here is another:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

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