Belvedere

I've been the spouse of an alcoholic for years, after trying to help and getting nowhere I was eventually labeled as co dependent. I kicked her out about a month ago. Now my business has gone down the tubes, I'm facing eviction and bankruptcy. I've never been an addict or alcoholic, but I just hit the bottle. I've drank a bunch of whiskey, took 4 Xanax bars, 6 somas, and 5 norcos. Not sure I'll make it through the night. I'm at the end of my rope, I've lost all hope

Mags1

Hi Belvedere, sorry you're facing all these problems , what would you say to yourself if you was your own co-dependant?

You will face these tribulations better with a clear mind, can you ditch the booze and start looking for a solution.

Belvedere

This is first time I've drank in over a year. I'm not a drinker, but just want to escape reality. Contemplated suicide today, put a gun to my temple and couldn't pull the trigger. I don't see a solution, only pain, suffering, and misery. I've had a clear head through it all until tonight. But not sure if I am codependent or not. No one in my life who cares if I live or die, I feel alone.

Junoluna

I am no doctor but that sounds like an extremely dangerous combination.
I have read your other thread and it is a heartbreaking read.
Can't offer any advise at all other than to get to a hospital.

I am posting to bump this thread in case anybody else can offer something of more substance to you....

Sober'sBest

IF YOU SLEEP

YOU COULD DIE TONIGHT !

I'd CALL 911 NOW !

Belvedere

I'm still here. Hanging by a thread. No longer afraid of death

Belvedere

Drowning in my tears. I've been strong for so long. But I'm out of energy, out of hope.

OddOneIn

Make yourself throw up. Bel are any of those mixed w/ tyleno/acetaminophen. Cause that can mess you up long time.

Sober'sBest

you're not thinking now !

Sober'sBest

the ER can save you !

But you have to call 911 now !!!

Dee74

Soberbest - please stop it with the big red font. It's not helping.

I'm sorry to hear you're so low Belvedere. This is a link of crisis numbers and reading that might be useful to you.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html

Of course going to the ER and getting checked out is probably the best idea?

Keep talking to us

D

Belvedere

Not gonna lie. Big red font makes me want to stop refreshing this page. Just found out my SO went to the ER about 8 hours ago. My guess is pancreatic again. Ironic huh?

Dee74

I'm sorry that you've had to deal with that for what must have been a long time.
Do you have any friends or family to call who might be able to be with you right now?

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Belvedere

How could someone else's addiction push me to the same thing? Makes no sense to me, goes against all logic, and I'm a philosopher. Was even invited by a past philosophy professor to hang with his colleagues and toss around ideas. Why am I in this position, I've tried to be a good man, always been there for everyone always been a rock to those around me. Now all of those people are nowhere to be found

Dee74

Despair and fear can push us to breaking point sometimes I think.

Sounds like you're a pretty switched on and clued in guy tho.

Do you think you need the ER?

D

Sober'sBest

Are you religious Belevedere?

What is your Meaning of Life?

Why can't you find a whole new life?

Do you think she really loved you?


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Belvedere

called for a ride to the er. Falling asleep thank u

Dee74

Keep talking if you like until your ride gets there - I'm not going anywhere

D

Dee74

I hope you're on your way to help by now, Belvedere

Let us know how you got on , when you can ok?

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teatreeoil007

I hope you check in with us Belvedere....Hope you are alright! We care. We really do. That's a fact.