Still sober
 

No matter who or what tries to knock me down.

Let's see... it'll be ten months in about a week and a half.

Nice one, Sleepie!:c011:

Thanks I'll be pretty proud after a full year which is coming up sooner than later. Especially considering how hard it has been and the things I have been through and well my life in general.

Great job Sleepie! Now onto one year!

Kudos to you!! keep up the great work!!

There you are Sleepie! I am so relieved; I have been worried about you.
Hope you are doing ok. Don't let the turkeys get you down Girl!
Croutie

Oh, I'm not letting anyone or anything rob me of my year. Sad as it is, there are some who would like such a thing.

Good to hear from you and that you're doing well :)

Congrats !
 

I hope one day I ll be like you, i really do. Congrats

It hasn't been easy. I never got a pink cloud or anything like that, I didn't feel better after any length of time and I still don't sleep properly. The fact that my most depressed time of year, summer, is finally gone has helped my anxiety and depression. But I still don't drink or take benzos.

Sick isnt it? kinda gotta try to just not focus on these types.

I know after a year i guess the first thing that came to mind at 1 year was hey you did good how about a drink now Nuts ? ! i know but i wont lie. I didnt drink tho. Just kept going.

But I felt like I had crawled out of some kinda black hole and it was like *yawn* theres a great big world out out there huh? i felt a bit lost still too.

ITs good to see you come so far. I know you've been vocal about your struggles so it has not been simple. I hope it eases up.

Congrats on your ten months Sleepie :)

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Congrats!!:You_Rock_

I actually have moments of fleeting happiness for now with all the cool grey skies and evening coming sooner. I love the night and falling leaves. It's my time.

It won't be 10 months official until the 21st but that's soon. Then a whole year will be around the corner.

I still don't sleep properly but 2 times I did lately after it got cooler.

Zjw yep everyone isn't on the same level and the world does suffer a lack of compassion. Speaking of which I read a very interesting book by Hervey Cleckley.

yeah i love this time of year myself its great. My only complaint with gloomy skys is i swear i'm solar powerd i'm generally more lethargic and tired on those kinds of days i mean i guess its good it almost forces me to slow down but still!! lol.

fleeting happiness sounds familier. your like huh is this what happiness feels like? am I allowed to feelt his way? I started having those kinds of moments probably about 10 months in or so i remember going roller skating with my kids and i put on a pair of skates and my kids where mesmarized that i could do it. they had 80's music going and i was in my element again lol. I swear it was probably my first really good sober day. I really came out of my shell that day even fell and got laughed at it was all good. And the whole time i thought not long ago i woulda never gone or been miserable that i couldnt just go home and get drunk instead of being in such aplace.

Congrats sleepie :) I'm really happy for you and glad to hear you're enjoying the cooler weather more. 10 months is awesome- a year right around the corner. :scoregood

I am trying really hard to savor every day this month especially as it was a very, very grueling and hot summer. It brought on such a depression I thought it might be the end of me. I want to just live my life a little after last year's ongoing nightmare of Dr appt. after Dr appt.

I can't even read a single paragraph of the news in this hostile old world. I was exposed to a lot of cruelty for a very long time in my life and I can't take knowing that this is the way of the world. I knew to early.

I just drink a lot of coffee, read alot. For whatever reason I quit eating and lost 10 pounds.

I'm not reading or listening to the news either - just online headlines a couple of times a day.

I hope you're eating again :)

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I'm so proud of you, sleepie.

Thanks guys