CajunPrincess

Congrats sleepie. This thread has really inspired me. also - I become more depressed in fall and cooler weather... and it's now the early part of fall. I hate that you have a rough time with summer, but it also says to me "If they can make it through their worst season, then I can make it through mine too"

2muchpain

A titan, really. I guess we all have a different interpretation of what a titan is, but this my take on this. Titans come in all forms. To me, a titan is able to dig themselves out of an incredible hole and fight through incredible odds to achieve success. I guess my surviving physical and verbal abuse and achieving what I have done could be considered a titanic achievement, but I don't. Maybe I don't give myself enough credit, but I see people all around me who's lives are much more difficult than mine. I see many people pushing shopping carts full of all their stuff going nowhere. To me these people are the titans; not me, sleepie or anybody else that have a roof over their heads and food on the table. We all have things to complain about, but we can do this in the comfort of our homes with a warm meal in front of us. Thank god I'm not the guy I see all the time pushing his shopping cart with all his belongings down the street going nowhere. I wish I could catch that guy at the right time to buy him a meal. I'll keep trying. He's old and looks pretty tired. John

2muchpain

Now that guys a titan. Anybody living in a home and has food of the table like me is not a titan but that's just my opinion. All my needs are met. The titans are the ones that find a way to survive. Those are the titans, not me. I have a lot of respect for those people and anger for those like me that don't do more for them. IMHO, people like me, sleepie or others that feel that their lives are such a mess should consider themselves lucky.

least

Sleepie! Big congrats on ten months sober! I am very happy for you.

sleepie

That is soon least, in about a week or just under a week, thanks

trachemys

sleepie, you're a Titan.

sleepie

Thank you Trach it has not been easy.

zjw

My annual anniversaries are very solemn days they mean more to me then any other day of the year I usual reflect on things all day. At one year no one noticed or cared but at 5 my wife got me a card that meant a lot to me. I try and do something for myself. I know some say we shouldn't celebrate finally doing what we should be doing I get that but I worked to hard came to far to not at the very least notice the day and try and reward myself somehow.

sleepie

I remember that 5 year anniversary zjw and the card! I understand about it being what we are finally supposed to do. But then, if we were to continue, what about all the sadness and harm we would have caused to ourselves and maybe others? What if well suppose, if we had continued one more day or week or something and at that point we caused the harm of another while inebriated or had an awful accident or something?

I mean in that sense it is a good thing right?

SnazzyDresser

Congrats on your upcoming 10 months, sleepie!

Impurrfect

Congratulations Sleepie!!! So proud of you and I'm another one that's glad the cooler weather has come.

sleepie

Thanks you guys how have you been?

SnazzyDresser

I'm doing pretty good.

sleepie

hi Snazz what dons you today, I am compelled to inquire as your name says it...

SnazzyDresser

blue Oxford shirt, jeans, flip flops. I'm dressed for dinner.

sleepie

I'm wearing leopard print lol

sleepie

How are you doing today Trach?

I was reading up on "titan"... " one that is gigantic in size or power "...

I might have kept drinking, might have let another discourage me and go back to benzos... I didn't though.

So thank you Trach, and Croutie... and others. I recall you started that thread for me long ago Trach, when I was near stumbling on this difficult sober path.

So thanks for the lift and stay near so we can keep an eye on you during this difficult time in your family Trach.

Maudcat

Congrats!!!

trachemys

I need watching. The last two weeks have stressed me near to breaking.

My sister's heart attack. "No, no need to come. she's alright"

I still felt guilty for not being there.

My mother's crisis. My healthy sister out of town.

"Please come help."

It's nice having a new car. "Wow, you got here quick." Nice knowing how to drive, too.

I'm thankful for a responsive nursing staff that met the needs at 3 AM. My sister was pleased that I didn't go berserk on them.

sleepie, you are of great power. You don't think so. What you have done is superhuman. You don't think so.

We know.

Titan.

lunar

That's great news sleepie!

Glad to hear you're feeling better.