Still sober
now's the time
Join Date: Feb 2013
Posts: 2,181
On my one year I wore a nice dress and went to a random tiny AA meeting and told the people there how happy I was. I would've maybe done more but I'm in a new city and it was a weeknight. It was a very very quiet huge deal.
So proud of you for your ten months! Congratulations!
So proud of you for your ten months! Congratulations!
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: NYC
Posts: 18,229
I'm so glad you're reaching your 10 months!
I don't remember what I did on my 1 year day, the first go around or the second. Milestones are not good for me to dwell on. For sobriety, it's just today. It's just turned out to be that way for me, but I don't celebrate my own birthday or holidays much either. Sometimes I cook something good.
Whatever you do, the point is that every day you stay off drink & benzos, that's a day more you can claim for yourself instead of losing it to addiction.
I don't remember what I did on my 1 year day, the first go around or the second. Milestones are not good for me to dwell on. For sobriety, it's just today. It's just turned out to be that way for me, but I don't celebrate my own birthday or holidays much either. Sometimes I cook something good.
Whatever you do, the point is that every day you stay off drink & benzos, that's a day more you can claim for yourself instead of losing it to addiction.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
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These things kind of mean something to me. Same with birthday. It's like a day I can actually just be like, "Hey I matter". So I don't know. Maybe I'll get a gourmet coffee or something. Whatever that is. I think I made it up.
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Milwaukee, Wisconsin, USA
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Thanks for checking in, Sleepie! Fall is my favorite time of the year too. The cooler weather has been great.
I didn't really do anything special on my one year sober. But, after 7+ years, I still get a tremendous amount of satisfaction with each passing year. In some ways, it's better than my actual birthday.
I didn't really do anything special on my one year sober. But, after 7+ years, I still get a tremendous amount of satisfaction with each passing year. In some ways, it's better than my actual birthday.
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Cool, thanks.
I have turned my back on all things. That has helped. I no longer deal with people at all in my day and that probably helps more than anything. Just long, cool, solitary days filled with books and walking and some non human related work that pays.
I have turned my back on all things. That has helped. I no longer deal with people at all in my day and that probably helps more than anything. Just long, cool, solitary days filled with books and walking and some non human related work that pays.
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: NYC
Posts: 18,229
Originally Posted by sleepie 
I have turned my back on all things. That has helped. I no longer deal with people at all in my day and that probably helps more than anything. Just long, cool, solitary days filled with books and walking and some non human related work that pays.
Marchia in Aeternum
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 10,894
sleepie, you know you matter.
Keep doing what you're doing.
Someone once told me that when the first flying, fire-breathing dragon came to the village, most ran. Some of the villagers ran, some hid.
A few, maybe even just one, grabbed a sword and rushed forward into battle.
Flying, fire-breathing dragons are no match for heroes.
You are a hero, a Titan.
Keep doing what you're doing.
Someone once told me that when the first flying, fire-breathing dragon came to the village, most ran. Some of the villagers ran, some hid.
A few, maybe even just one, grabbed a sword and rushed forward into battle.
Flying, fire-breathing dragons are no match for heroes.
You are a hero, a Titan.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Posts: 8,614
I have had a really hard time and been through a lot. I figure if anyone else feels bad, doesn't get a "pink cloud" or can't sleep right ever again... if I can do it so can they. I never had a pink cloud anywhere in life and my best days were my drinking days. It was the only happiness I ever had and now it's over.
My motivating factor is simply to see "what happens" and not to die before my abusers. They would only love to see their behavior come to fruition and me die early of addiction or alcoholic disease. It would be the perfect "perpetrator as victim" scenario. If I were an active alcoholic who then died, they could get sympathy and paint me any way they like- with themselves as the poor victims, conveniently editing out the many, many years of abuse they inflicted upon me.
I just learned that an old boss of mine who bullied me out of the work place "resigned".
My motivating factor is simply to see "what happens" and not to die before my abusers. They would only love to see their behavior come to fruition and me die early of addiction or alcoholic disease. It would be the perfect "perpetrator as victim" scenario. If I were an active alcoholic who then died, they could get sympathy and paint me any way they like- with themselves as the poor victims, conveniently editing out the many, many years of abuse they inflicted upon me.
I just learned that an old boss of mine who bullied me out of the work place "resigned".
Marchia in Aeternum
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 10,894
I been battling, sleepie. Last week my sister had a heart attack. Minor but, scary. This week, Mom get's hospitalized for a weird ailment and I spent all night in the hospital watching her.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
Posts: 12,907
Great to hear from you Sleepie! I am about a week and a half behind you. I will hit the ten month mark on the 1st. Glad to have you pulling the sobriety train for those of us a little behind you. Keep it up!!
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