Brownout false memories
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If you are hyperfocusing on a memory, rehashing it over and over, your brain could be creating false memories. In essence it can happen without alcohol either - time can alter our memories and how / what we remember about an incident.
See a doc and I agree w Scott-focus on the present. You are sober that is awesome! Think of all you need to do to stay sober and leave the rest for later. If you need to revisit those memories later, you can do that when you have stabilized a bit.
See a doc and I agree w Scott-focus on the present. You are sober that is awesome! Think of all you need to do to stay sober and leave the rest for later. If you need to revisit those memories later, you can do that when you have stabilized a bit.
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I believe that I will be sober for a looooong time. This was a really traumatic experience, maybe the most traumatic blackout ever.
Do I really want to ever again experience severe anxiety attacks few days after hangover and then worry for over two weeks ''did I really said that or done that?''
Of course not.
Do I really want to ever again experience severe anxiety attacks few days after hangover and then worry for over two weeks ''did I really said that or done that?''
Of course not.
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This is clearly still bothering you. You said you were with some friends that night - why don't you ask one of them? Maybe that would help you clear things up. Talking to someone about it might relieve some of your anxiety.
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Do you name these 'brownout' rather than 'blackout' because you feel as if you remember some, but not all? Like a 'semi blackout'? I think all alcoholics experience these at some points during their drinking career. It was one of the things that made me realize I didn't drink normally and drank differently from others who could handle their drink better even when having plenty. And the bad conscience from them is terrible, especially when you consider yourself a person of somewhat high moral standards when sober.
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Originally Posted by FLCamper 
This is clearly still bothering you. You said you were with some friends that night - why don't you ask one of them? Maybe that would help you clear things up. Talking to someone about it might relieve some of your anxiety.
They were all drinking.
I am somewhat embarassed to ask others. The worst part is - do I really want to know?
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Originally Posted by Loekken
Do you name these 'brownout' rather than 'blackout' because you feel as if you remember some, but not all? Like a 'semi blackout'? I think all alcoholics experience these at some points during their drinking career. It was one of the things that made me realize I didn't drink normally and drank differently from others who could handle their drink better even when having plenty. And the bad conscience from them is terrible, especially when you consider yourself a person of somewhat high moral standards when sober.
Next day was fine except for hangover and several day after I've got severe anxiety attacks and flashbacks started to come.
Now I have 100 versions of clear conversations in my head.
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Originally Posted by anonimuser
18 days sober.
Slowly feelling better every day.
Can't believe what just one night of binge drinking can do.
Slowly feelling better every day.
Can't believe what just one night of binge drinking can do.
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Originally Posted by ScottFromWI
Congrats on 18 days! And yep, one night of binge drinking can do a lot of damage. Be grateful you are alive and here to talk about it...some don't even have that luxury.
Yeah, I am grateful to still be alive.
Even though I was contemplating a lot about suicide in the last 3 weeks.
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Originally Posted by anonimuser
Even though I was contemplating a lot about suicide in the last 3 weeks.
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Originally Posted by ScottFromWI
Consider seeking some mental health assistance/counseling for this. Thinking about it and planning it are 2 completely different things, but both are a sign of something amiss. There are free help lines nationally and most likely locally too that can help you sort through these kinds of issues.
THIS IS THE FIRST DAY THAT I AM FEELING (well almost) COMPLETLY NORMAL.
From time to time my minds is still ''remembering details'' or creating new false memories, but at least I am now mostly focused on the present and future.
Whatever happened happened. Time heals everything.
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