Big Life Changes Support Group Part 3
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Big Life Changes Support Group Part 3
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Nothing like a strong coffee at 3:30 am.
Those theta wave sleep tracks really work.
I had wild dreams. Too bad I don't remember them.
I dedicate this song to none other than..................................
How's everything, Suze?
Good evening.
Those theta wave sleep tracks really work.
I had wild dreams. Too bad I don't remember them.
I dedicate this song to none other than..................................
How's everything, Suze?
Good evening.
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Hello love. 
Good.....really good. Moving full-steam ahead, and finding it much easier to ignore the fact that I don't feel great physically. I started exercising again, so I'm betting in a week I will feel even better than this. One day at a time.
LOVE this song...it's been years. Far out Creedence were awesome.
Huge huge hugs lunar. ♥
Good.....really good. Moving full-steam ahead, and finding it much easier to ignore the fact that I don't feel great physically. I started exercising again, so I'm betting in a week I will feel even better than this. One day at a time.
LOVE this song...it's been years. Far out Creedence were awesome.
Huge huge hugs lunar. ♥
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Thanks Suze, I wish you the same; but evening, of course.
Working 8:00am-1:00pm, then home, shower, nap.
Body is still recovering.
Day 48. Lost some weight.
Feeling much better. Awesome sleep.
Less anxiety.
Working 8:00am-1:00pm, then home, shower, nap.
Body is still recovering.
Day 48. Lost some weight.
Feeling much better. Awesome sleep.
Less anxiety.
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I just wanted to say thanks for the nice words yesterday all 
I sure don't feel so self aware, I feel like an incompetent, disorganized 17 year old who can't get her act together. I'm just a hot mess.
I feel a lack of spirituality in my life. But I was trying to post about this yesterday when the thread reached its 500 limit post. I struggle a lot with disconnection, or dissociation. Sometimes I feel very in tune with people, events, things, or experiences. Sometimes is being kind of generous though.
I know this thing that I live with (I treat it like I treat my addiction, my addiction was a bottle of vodka in my head, now I view BPD is a big black shadow that lives in my head and always has) does not define me and is manageable if not surmountable. I lose hope many times a day (who doesn't?) but then I consciously work on changing negative thoughts. Turning them around, putting a smile on my face. The fake it til you make it.
Then I read on my sober tool app yesterday and it made a lot of sense to me.
"First I came, then I came to, then I came to believe."
First I got sober and showed up for life, then I did the work to get better, eventually I will learn faith in myself and something bigger than me. Sobriety is one thing, oh but to be recovered and healing sounds like the garden of Eden to me.
I'm a work in progress. And procrastination. Gah.
I sure don't feel so self aware, I feel like an incompetent, disorganized 17 year old who can't get her act together. I'm just a hot mess.
I feel a lack of spirituality in my life. But I was trying to post about this yesterday when the thread reached its 500 limit post. I struggle a lot with disconnection, or dissociation. Sometimes I feel very in tune with people, events, things, or experiences. Sometimes is being kind of generous though.
I know this thing that I live with (I treat it like I treat my addiction, my addiction was a bottle of vodka in my head, now I view BPD is a big black shadow that lives in my head and always has) does not define me and is manageable if not surmountable. I lose hope many times a day (who doesn't?) but then I consciously work on changing negative thoughts. Turning them around, putting a smile on my face. The fake it til you make it.
Then I read on my sober tool app yesterday and it made a lot of sense to me.
"First I came, then I came to, then I came to believe."
First I got sober and showed up for life, then I did the work to get better, eventually I will learn faith in myself and something bigger than me. Sobriety is one thing, oh but to be recovered and healing sounds like the garden of Eden to me.
I'm a work in progress. And procrastination. Gah.
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Delizadee, you do sound very self-aware, I think. Give yourself credit for that.
And procrastination -- oh boy, yeah I hear you. It is something I struggle with, always. Always. Getting better though.
I have to block out chunks of time in the day to focus. And then I actually have to do the work. No exceptions. Doesn't always work, but I'm still working on it, lol.
Give yourself credit for that.And procrastination -- oh boy, yeah I hear you. It is something I struggle with, always. Always. Getting better though.
I have to block out chunks of time in the day to focus. And then I actually have to do the work. No exceptions. Doesn't always work, but I'm still working on it, lol.
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I like chocolate and sweets and desserts umm, once a year.
Could there be something wrong with me?
I think I would like to see your beagles. I should show off my flufferdogs. They love their walk time and everyone just fawns over them. My little jack russell and my shaggy old mutt. They are my good furbabies. Little one and I do walks almost every day with them, I'm really not looking forward to winter because it will mean short or no walks.
Could there be something wrong with me?
I think I would like to see your beagles. I should show off my flufferdogs. They love their walk time and everyone just fawns over them. My little jack russell and my shaggy old mutt. They are my good furbabies. Little one and I do walks almost every day with them, I'm really not looking forward to winter because it will mean short or no walks.
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Good afternoon Suze!
Ready for a strong coffee here.
I can spend time with my critters, under their red lamps.
Took a deep three hour nap after work yesterday plus
an additional six hours of sleep later on. Raring to go here
at 2:20 am! Might need a nap later, tho.........
Jennie, looking forward to seeing your beagle photos.
Off to the red room with a potent coffee.
Be back soon.
Ready for a strong coffee here.
I can spend time with my critters, under their red lamps.
Took a deep three hour nap after work yesterday plus
an additional six hours of sleep later on. Raring to go here
at 2:20 am! Might need a nap later, tho.........
Jennie, looking forward to seeing your beagle photos.
Off to the red room with a potent coffee.
Be back soon.
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I cleaned out my pantry today and found two ziplock bags of dog food. It was from before my younger daughter got married, and the house was ruled by her French Bulldog (the guy in my avatar). Circa 2010!
I found one can from 2008!
I found one can from 2008!
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