Need some kindness. 4 months til one year sober.
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Need some kindness. 4 months til one year sober.
After I tried and forced myself to exercise I had an increase in anxiety. I stuck it out for awhile. It just felt horrible. Also feeling down about the way I've been treated by some others. I have some benzos. They appeal. I just feel discouraged after this last 8 months. I don't know, will I make it to a year sober, does it even matter? I really need some love and kind words right now. Also read up on abuse survivors, "tough love" is not a good thing for this. It just feels like more abuse. So, this is a forum and I'm allowed my insights and this is a big one. It feels like more abuse to me. I require kindness. I am 8 months sober. Fellow abuse survivors may understand. I need to read some kind and encouraging things tonight because I'm really discouraged. I have a feeling one of you will say I've already gotten kindness here. Well then, I'm asking for more. It's better than using, isn't it.
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Tuesday will be four weeks for me. I can't wait to say I'm at 8 months and counting. Don't let anyone around you discourage you or make you feel bad about your decision to end the progressive killing of yourself! I have anxiety and depression (as I'm sure most of you do) and it's been one of the reasons I kept going back to drinking. It's completely overwhelming at times and at this stage I still feel like crap, but I'm coming off of 14 years of heavy alcohol use. We will beat this, with or without the people we've known because if they're holding us back we do not need them! Don't stop going forward. One slip up (to me anyway) means you have to reset everything you've accomplished. May we continue our success and grow into the people we should have been before we decided to get into this nasty habit. Congrats on 8 months, that's a huge accomplishment! 
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Well done with the sober time. Huge achievement. When I fluffed an important t-shot on the golf course in a league game one day my opponent said: just be kind to yourself. That has stuck and works everywhere. Just be kind to yourself. You deserve it.
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Hugs, Sleepie. You're doing great. You are right where you need to be! You are going to have bad days. But they will pass. You will have good days too, brighter days ahead! Fall is coming 
cooler days, the smell of leaves etc. you can do this! I have faith in you.
cooler days, the smell of leaves etc. you can do this! I have faith in you.
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Please get rid of the benzos Sleepie. You just said you wouldn't take them yesterday and that you have no problem being around them, but it's kind of obvious from the outside looking in that you are tempted. Give them back to your friend or just flush them, it will be one less thing to worry about.
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Originally Posted by sleepie 
I don't know, will I make it to a year sober, does it even matter?
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