Need some kindness. 4 months til one year sober.
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By the way, I was reading a post you made in July. You mentioned that you like to listen to stories on youtube. I know there are "talks," informative lectures, etc. But if you really mean "stories" I would love some extra info.
I listen to my favorite DVD film commentaries when I need help sleeping - like the stories my mother NEVER told me at bedtime.
I listen to my favorite DVD film commentaries when I need help sleeping - like the stories my mother NEVER told me at bedtime.
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How's it going sleepie? I came across this quote today and thought I would share:
"Never neglect to do a kindness; the cost is small and the rewards are great." -Judith Junis - grandmother - Geneseo, IL
"Never neglect to do a kindness; the cost is small and the rewards are great." -Judith Junis - grandmother - Geneseo, IL
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I am trying and hopefully learning to practice more self kindness. I battle with my inner critic...one of the products of being a perfectionist. I consider myself a recovering perfectionist as much as anything else.
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Hi guys. Well as far as stories just go to youtube and type in "short stories" something will pop up. I listened to this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j--hDgtmQIw
Now it is Stephen King so I dunno if that's your cuppa? But really I like his way of reading almost more than the story itself.
I love DVD commentaries. I used to listen to them when I was lonely! They really are great though.
teatree I do a kindness everyday. I am that slightly wild haired older gal who gives out a compliment and talks to strangers. I always have something nice to say. It's almost a defense strategy- I try and say something nice before I can be judged. I even tend to make people laugh though you may not see that here.
Thank you eeerooo how are you today?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j--hDgtmQIw
Now it is Stephen King so I dunno if that's your cuppa? But really I like his way of reading almost more than the story itself.
I love DVD commentaries. I used to listen to them when I was lonely! They really are great though.
teatree I do a kindness everyday. I am that slightly wild haired older gal who gives out a compliment and talks to strangers. I always have something nice to say. It's almost a defense strategy- I try and say something nice before I can be judged. I even tend to make people laugh though you may not see that here.
Thank you eeerooo how are you today?
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Originally Posted by teatreeoil007 
I am trying and hopefully learning to practice more self kindness. I battle with my inner critic...one of the products of being a perfectionist. I consider myself a recovering perfectionist as much as anything else.
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Sleepie, congrats on 8 months!
For me, the magic really kicked in around a year. For the first year, I was up and down and emotionally all over the place. It truly does get better. Especially if you are working on some sort of program that helps you recover from this. I found recovery helped me deal with my past in all ways, not simply the drinking problem. That was a bonus.
Speaking of my past, I'd like to thank you for totally connecting some dots for me. I really don't do well with "tough love" either. I typically just take it on board and feel worse, beat myself up. My joke has always been, "nobody can beat me up better than I can..."
To hear you connect that to past trauma really cleared up part of the last 30 years, than you! Learn something new every day.
For me, the magic really kicked in around a year. For the first year, I was up and down and emotionally all over the place. It truly does get better. Especially if you are working on some sort of program that helps you recover from this. I found recovery helped me deal with my past in all ways, not simply the drinking problem. That was a bonus.
Speaking of my past, I'd like to thank you for totally connecting some dots for me. I really don't do well with "tough love" either. I typically just take it on board and feel worse, beat myself up. My joke has always been, "nobody can beat me up better than I can..."
To hear you connect that to past trauma really cleared up part of the last 30 years, than you! Learn something new every day.
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Thank you wehav2day I hold out hope that a year will do it. Well, hope is all I have so why not. I appreciate your thoughts on the other matter as well, I believe quite a few of us here have had past trauma unfortunately.
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Sleepie I think you are amazing. I really relate to how you spoke about disarming people with compliments or a joke as a defense mechanism. I do that too all the time.
I think you're doing great things for yourself and good things are yet to come
Much much love my friend
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I think you're doing great things for yourself and good things are yet to come
Much much love my friend
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I have been down too. So spreading starsprinkle to my special peeps makes me a lil happier.
Going for a walk with my doggies and Lil kiddo this eve... what's our sleepie doing for herself today?
Going for a walk with my doggies and Lil kiddo this eve... what's our sleepie doing for herself today?
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Sleepie I am a borderline parent.
I feel very deeply for you because I know I have unintentionally put my kids through hell.
Crying can be soul cleansing if we don't let it drown us.
Just know I love you.
I love my kids too, they have always been my life. I do the best I can with what I was taught.
So I'm sending you the big hugs and loves that you needed that you missed out on.
We're not an easy lot to deal with.
I feel very deeply for you because I know I have unintentionally put my kids through hell.
Crying can be soul cleansing if we don't let it drown us.
Just know I love you.
I love my kids too, they have always been my life. I do the best I can with what I was taught.
So I'm sending you the big hugs and loves that you needed that you missed out on.
We're not an easy lot to deal with.
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It was different with my mother, she is a bonafide sadist who enjoys hurting people. It's not the kind of thing you just "get over" and it really did rob me of a life. You don't just go get treatment in a neat little package and call it a day when the first half of your life was spent literally being tormented by the person who was supposed to protect you, and this is very hard to live with. It also makes pretty much all of life really difficult, painful and confusing.
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