PurpleKnight

What's been happening Sleepie? . . . I and others are so made up for you over your Sober time!!

tomsteve

sleepie, i hope and pray that real soon you stop allowing yourself to be tbe victim which is self destruction,stop focusing on how everyone else behaves and allowing them to control you, and start recovery.

some very good reads:

14 Signs Someone Is Always Playing The Victim

https://healthpsychologyconsultancy....m-personality/


heres some great reads on solutions


https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog...he-victim-game

How to Stop Being a Victim


i hope and pray you decide to start changing yourself.

sleepie

As zjw said, I keep my side of the street clean.

least

Big hugs for you Sleepie. Congrats on 8 months clean and sober! You deserve a special treat.

sleepie

We're having a floor picnic. We got a bunch of cheap treats and fruits and some veggies and hummus, that kind of stuff. A tray of pseudo sushi from the supermarket. Music and conversation. I guess what they call "quality time". I had to arrange it all, bf never really does but I guess at least he plays along.

sleepie

So my nightly dilemma regarding sleep. Do I just forget it, stay up and watch tv all night and face another upside down day in which I'm poorly rested, take a Benadryl which makes me feel bad the next day, or just lay in bed sleepless? I always feel awful the next day no matter which one.

zjw

I know this. I just took the lay in bed sleepless approach and like once a week I'd crash. It was the solution I could come up with. And then yes struggle for my sanity try and keep a smile,lie on my face and remain sober employed pay the bills etc. while being sleep deprived still dunno how I did it or still do at times but somehow crap just seems to work out not always perfect but things come around. Again pat yourself on the back because despite your circumstances you are still slugged it out. Stand still change direction or get a change of scenery but don't go backwards.

Hang in there.

fantail

Congratulations, sleepie!

I know that sleepless choice so well. It's awful and I've never figured out the right answer. I really hope that as time goes by sleep gets easier for you.

sleepie

Insomnia will make a person nuts.

I have reverse sleep. Once I stay up too late that's all it takes. Mostly it's anxiety, just too anxious to sleep. I've always been nocturnal.

courage2

Hey sleepie -- good to see you & congratulations on sticking with sobriety.

I probably sound like Little Miss Sunshine these days especially to people who knew me at the beginning. I'm not -- in fact, I've been really stressed & feeling kind of crazy lately -- but even so, I know that any authentic experience of good I find in life comes through sobriety. And I do experience that goodness -- it took much more than 8 months, but I feel it powerfully, sometimes.

So. I believe you'll find goodness in your life, too. Onward!

sleepie

I've been reading about benzo withdrawal. It really takes a long time, this is not easy. I think the benzos and drinking together really did something. It's not child's play getting off this stuff.

courage2

Nope, it's not. I wasn't on benzos, but I had a long history of alcoholism & drug addiction before that. It took a long time for me to start to feel better. Don't give up now -- you've come a long way forward, though I know it doesn't always feel that way.

sleepie

I've read a lot if stories about the benzos, they really are a special kind of hell and for some it doesn't even take but a few weeks to get addicted! I need to read up on exactly how it works on the brain but I'm tired and my attention is not wanting it.

sleepie

Hello TheVman nice to meet you and how are you coming along in sobriety?

Talkinandwalkin

Wait. Did you say fragile as in fragile rock. I remember that when I was a kid. That one stopped me in my tracks for a couple of beats. Really made me laugh!

Talkinandwalkin

And congrats. 8 months is gggreat!

sleepie

Yes I meant Fraggle Rock Walkinandtalkin, sure did lol

Oops I meant Talkinandwalkin

Talkinandwalkin

It's ok. Funny thing is after over a year of sobriety I can't remember why on earth I even picked that name. I am serious no idea! I am going to have to watch Fraggle Rock. I wonder if it is on Netflix.

theVman31

Nice to meet you too.
Be aware my post got pulled so i got a slap on the back of the hand from D You dont want get on his bad side But he was right it was medical advice...

Its very early days but really good at the moment, thanks for asking !

Starting the 3rd month

Talkinandwalkin

Ok. Now that really made me think. What if... Our names evolved in real life that were descriptive of how we felt versus an arbitrary set of letters.