venuscat

I don't know. I have three different infections in my body at once, and the doctor is very concerned. She wants me to have an MRI to see if there is another bone tumor.

Anna

I think so too.

Soberpotamus

Oh, no!

I am so sorry. I sure hope it's not a tumor.

How soon will you know?

Anna

Oh Suze, you must feel miserable and scared. (((Venuscat))) I'm sorry you're going through this.

venuscat

I am not as scared as last time. It's the fourth time....I am annoyed to be honest.
And I think she is wrong.....I guess I just have to have the MRI.
Not scheduled yet. I will make some calls in a few minutes.

One way or another I will be fine. I'm sure. ♥

Soberpotamus

Oh my gosh, I really hope it's not what she thinks. It's better that you're annoyed, I think. I would be too. I think I'd be angry!

I hope you find out soon.

venuscat

Thank you love ~ thank you both.
I'm glad I'm talking about this, because anger is good.
Anger propels us forward, whereas fear keeps us frozen. s

Soberpotamus

Yes, agreed. If for now, you can be angry that's good to keep things moving forward! Annoyed, angry, whichever.

Here for you no matter what.

I'm sure you must be scared, too. That's ok. You can still keep moving through the fear. That's courage.

Dee74

Wishing you a clean bill of health Suze
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fantail

I hope everything turns out to be ok Suze. I'll be thinking of you. Sorry I've been a bit absent, just been very busy with the apartment. Big big hugs to you

venuscat

Thank you so very much guys. s ♥

The MRI is booked for Monday. And it isn't as expensive as I feared, so that's something. (I no longer have any government concession, so I thought it might be around $800).

I have a million thoughts racing.
It's as if there is a mini-me running around inside my brain, crashing into the sides and making me dizzy.

I have emotions swirling that I do not want to unleash; I really need to stay in control here. And worry is such a terrible waste of time. I wish I could have held onto the anger, but it dissipated.

Our recovery tools can get us through anything...perhaps concentrating on looking after myself right now, and moving through all of this one step at a time is the best way to manage.

lunar

Morning/afternoon.
Hope you're feeling better Venus.

fantail

What are your plans for the week? Are you feeling well enough to be out and about or are you mostly at home?

venuscat

I am fighting with myself right now, and I didn't win today.
Tomorrow I am going to push past this and get moving.

How is your apartment fantail? Any more progress love?

Soberwolf

I'm joining team Suze il fight beside you hun

lunar

Sorry you're feeling down, Venus (Suze?)
This is for you.

venuscat

Soberpotamus

It's great you have the MRI booked already, Suze!

Here for you...

Feel free to type anything you need to here. Anything at all. Crazy thoughts, angry thoughts, all of it...

Love you.

venuscat

Thank you love, I know you are here with me....but time to get back to our regular programming.

Dee74

Hold on missy lol

I think your stuff qualifies as a big life change Suze

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