The #1 reason that I stay sober today is ?
Because I enjoy driving around in my nice Tundra truck and a sweet little travel trailer hooked to the back. I still remember the days when I rode a motorized bicycle for a couple of years because I had no driver's license Bob
In 2013 I was diagnosed with liver inflammation and very high liver enzymes (3X normal) by my doctor through routine blood work. I was only 31. I also lied to her about how much I was drinking when asked. Told her 5-6 drinks a night (beer) when in fact it was 12-14 (vodka). I left that office sure as the day is long: I was never going to drink again.
I drank another year, every day.
Why do I stay sober today?
Well I got sober to heal my liver. A CT scan (at 18 months sober) and full blood work confirmed that it is completely healed. Normal size, normal enzymes.
I stay sober today because I want to live as long as I can (aka not drop dead of liver disease in my 30's). I feel like I was given a second chance and I'm not going to blow it.
I've been sober 25 months.
I drank another year, every day.
Why do I stay sober today?
Well I got sober to heal my liver. A CT scan (at 18 months sober) and full blood work confirmed that it is completely healed. Normal size, normal enzymes.
I stay sober today because I want to live as long as I can (aka not drop dead of liver disease in my 30's). I feel like I was given a second chance and I'm not going to blow it.
I've been sober 25 months.
I stay sober today as I do not want any of the train wreck that is active alcoholism in my life today
It was really hard to get the plug back in the jug and I can honestly say without reservation that I've had enough
Rising from the ashes
V
It was really hard to get the plug back in the jug and I can honestly say without reservation that I've had enough
Rising from the ashes
V
From what I have seen by those that relapse
there is no guarantee that we can ever be sober again.
Some poor souls go back out never to return.
I have known many who died with a bottle in their hand.
Stay -- it's easier -- remember -- the war is over.
M-Bob
After 24 years of recovery, I know -- deep in my gut -- that I have another drink in me but I don't think I have another recovery. And deep in my gut I know I will die if I drink. During that time nothing has been so bad a drink wouldn't make it worse.
Left the bottle behind 4/16/2015
Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: NC
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Today, specifically, I'm feeling kinda gloomy and missing my kids. I know that picking up the bottle would wreck everything I've gained thus far, and crush their trust even worse than before. These days I've learned that it's better to deal with life on life's terms. It still goes on whether or not I participate, so it's best to persevere.
i wanted to live. sobriety has given me one last chance. i intend to run like hell with the opportunity, and so i did.
i'm alot happier now. it's not to say i never think about it. i do. i just know i fought a war that seemed to drag on forever and i know what it took to get me here. i can never ever afford to forget that. or go back. that chapter is closed and my life is contingent upon my willingness to go to whatever length i have to in order to protect my life.
i'm alot happier now. it's not to say i never think about it. i do. i just know i fought a war that seemed to drag on forever and i know what it took to get me here. i can never ever afford to forget that. or go back. that chapter is closed and my life is contingent upon my willingness to go to whatever length i have to in order to protect my life.
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Nobody said life was easy but it's certainly easier without the problems associated with abusive drinking.
I've never forgotten where my life was the first time I entered the rooms of AA. The night before staggering drunk up the stairs to my new apartment wondering how long it would be before I'd fall down them.
No, I prefer not to go back there. Often members talk about picking up right where they left off. For me I'm not sure if it would be right away but the problems would return. The only question is when because I don't know much in life but I do know I can't drink socially. I played the drink out.
I have a drink I simply can't gage when enough is enough. I was never an abusive or ugly drunk. I just never knew when I'd across the line into a blackout.
I never set out to fall down a flight of stairs. To get stitched up or to pass out while cooking but it happened and more than once.
No, thanks. I think it's best that I just stay away from that first drink.
I've never forgotten where my life was the first time I entered the rooms of AA. The night before staggering drunk up the stairs to my new apartment wondering how long it would be before I'd fall down them.
No, I prefer not to go back there. Often members talk about picking up right where they left off. For me I'm not sure if it would be right away but the problems would return. The only question is when because I don't know much in life but I do know I can't drink socially. I played the drink out.
I have a drink I simply can't gage when enough is enough. I was never an abusive or ugly drunk. I just never knew when I'd across the line into a blackout.
I never set out to fall down a flight of stairs. To get stitched up or to pass out while cooking but it happened and more than once.
No, thanks. I think it's best that I just stay away from that first drink.
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