gleefan

I had a nice, quiet day today. I rested a bit, watched my younger son's lax game, prepared food for the week, and read.

Back when I was active in my addiction I had the misconception that life was supposed to be exciting and that on quiet days I must be doing something wrong. I had major fear of missing out; it still pops up from time to time.

Haha, in fact today I didn't know many of the parents at the lax game. I felt kind of insecure, like I was doing something wrong for NOT knowing them, and started to find them annoying.

I didn't practice my new redirection technique to think of 3 things In grateful for every time I feel resentful or annoyed. Later I did and eventually the clarity emerged that I wasn't mad at them; I was insecure that I felt left out.

In recovery I'm grateful to have the opportunity to press the restart button any time my thinking gets too toxic.

least

Practicing gratitude is the best thing I've ever done for myself. What a difference it makes.

fantail

Gleefan, you are really on it with the self awareness. Thanks for sharing your tips. You do a great job of catching yourself and assessing your real motivations... it's really helpful for me to read about.

Soberwolf

Good job Gleefan

SoberLeigh

You never fail to impress me, gleefan!!!!

biminiblue

mmmm. Thanks for this. That's a great recovery tool. I often say recovery is what happens in that moment between gut reaction and action. I had heard, "Pray for them..." which, okay - I can do that, but not right away. I can be grateful for something in the moment, though! Excellent.

Resentment? = Say three things I'm grateful for. Right then. Not three hours later, when I've ruined my own day and gone spinning off-track. Thank you.

Reset button.

gleefan

Bimini - It's been a game changer for me!

Hevyn

Very, very helpful gleefan. Makes such good sense.