bluedog97

For me the hardest thing was accepting I can no longer drink. I couldn't imagine life without it. It's still a battle at times. I have to stay vigilant of those thoughts and take action not to let them fester.

alaek

I can relate, and maybe I still am in denial. To most people around me, I am making an extreme decision by deciding to stop drinking, because I am only 24, and all of my friends continue to drink and party. I never drank on the weekdays either or when I had real responsibilities. Only on the weekends, and not even every weekend. But when I drank, I really drank. Don't get me wrong, there were some times when I didn't black out, or was able to have 2 drinks, though I always craved more. But this is what has always confused me-- do I really have a problem then if I didn't drink all the time? I could go months without drinking because I was so busy with school. But progressively, my drinking got worse and worse and I was blacking out every time I did actually drink. So that's bad, right? This is the constant back-and-forth I have in my mind every day. Am I in denial too, then? I've been sober 2 years........

cakeater

Thanks for the replies everyone. I popped in the thread to say I was tempted to drink tonight but didn't. My husband ( the biggest proponent of me quitting alcohol) suggested I have a drink with everyone. Ugh. Anyway, i said no and he made me a ginger lemon mocktail that was delicious.

Normal people don't get it. Someone like me can never drink normally.